Pain that goes to deep!

Sometimes i wonder how much pain can a person possibly hide? i've been through so much in my life and it seems it never ends. it's like everything i've gone through ... none of the wounds have ever healed ... so i'm carrying years and years of intense pain ... that nobody really knows about except me. if you meet me you'll think i'm the happiest go lucky girl in the world and if i pretend long enough i can actually be happy for a minute. but inside i'm falling farther and farther.

No worries, sweat pea. We all go through that especially during our teenage years. This is probably not the best thing you want to hear right now, but it gets harder. Enjoy the challenges you get right now and learn from them before real struggles start destroying you later.

In my opinion the worst thing you can do is pretend to be happy and hope it goes away. Ignoring problems never solves them, you need to find someone who you can talk to that can actually help you with your problems... someone who cares about you. I was recommended pills to and they didn't do squat so I agree with u there. But you need to open up, you need to find a way to let go of those feelings u have inside. Family and friends are your best bet...

I think some people are just more prone to sadness then others, and for some pills solve that but not for all. I'm depressed a lot of the time to, for no reason... I think terrible thoughts and expect the worst of everything. I hate myself for it... I mean I know I do these things but I cant fix them. I consider myself broken... but pretending to be happy just wore on me more. You gotta be yourself to become truly happy. always be yourself... even if your sad.

and yeah were always here to talk to. all u gotta do is post.

Hi! u know what, i also feels that! same like u if u meet me im kinda a happy girl but deep inside i was broken into pieces..

i've been through in pain for long years til now but dont knw how to open up w/friends or family even me dont really know how?

well, i guess and i believe some of these days all this pain that i carried inside will fade away in the rigth times.. maybe im not yet ready for the consequences or im just afraid to face the truth..

so i think u might be do what makes u happy then and just think that ur not all alone....

love lots,
Sweet lig

Yeap...I know what you mean...I was like that last year..it got so bad I would lash out at everyone...it's not good to carry onto so much pain and its not good to ponder on how much pain you can take either.... it's unhealthy ....but yes i am the same as you, im always cheerful w/e but inside i'm dieing.... best advice....just take some time out sometimes, i relieased that no one understands u beter then urself.. so the best thing u can do is go and sit someowhere sometimes...and just space out and think and just relax.....if your holding all these emotions its best to learn to controll them before they over load and then out burst out....but then again no one can ever forget about memories ect... you just have to learn to take it..or brush it aside...

if you need any extra advice i am happy to help..
:)

I wish i could offer you sum real good advice or a solution and i dont wan my post to be pointless to u... but i can honestly relate... i feel like i have to be strong and hide it ya no... but truthfully in the long run it will all cum back to haunt u... surpressing your feelings and ur pain is only a temporary solution... how much pain can one person take? we are all different and this proves that ur strong, but even the strongest of us break. but when u feel u have the strength look back on the painful events that still bother u and try to be a peace with them. As long as u surpress ur pain or hide ur pain and not deal with it it will always hurt u

You need a hobby first, something to take your anger out on. second you need to find some one you trust, someone who cares and wont judge and let them know. otherwise you can hold it in as long as possable, but the more you hold in, the bigger the explosion will be. you will release it all at once and you wont control when or where, and its not pretty.

Some people can hide their whole lives. and the thing is you can never tell.