Competition? Argh.

I definately feel like i can't do this anymore. The school situation. S'a very small school to, from prep to year 12 and around 250 people.
And this particular girl; she was my best friend, though now we aren't friends anymore and now everytime we're in the room it feels like it's a competition to be the one whos heard and like have more friends and not be the one who is sitting back. I just can't do it anymore, to try and compete. It makes me so tired and depressed. But then letting her do whatever, and socialising with everyone is making me depressed too. I really don't know what to do.

^^ I agree

Yeah i know it's childish and that.
And i am just going to sit back now, I decided that the other day.
I just wish she would stop you know? Cus it does get me really frustrated and upset.

Yeah, i kno how you feel. There's nothing you really can do except sit it out. the excitement of "beating you" will die down eventually. good luck!