Too Much Pain Too Many Tears

The past few weeks I have willed myself not to cry if anything happens, and it has worked up til now. The past few days I have cried a lot. Everything seems to just be too much to handle. It really got bad when someone who I am in love with made it pretty evident that we most likely won't be together and he wont change his bad ways. He makes me so happy when I live in the fantasy, and believe we are together and he wants only me, but at the end of the day when I realize we're are not together and it's a possibiity that I am not the only woman in his life my heart breaks more and more. Idon't know what to do and don't know who to go to, or how to deal with the pain...

Listen sweety ur biggest mistake was to stop yourself from crying. when your keeping it in your holding everything back and everything will catch up to u and all you can do is cry. my advice when u want to cry... do it cuz holding it back only makes it worse. and for the man in your life. lets things go. if they were meant to be it wouldnt be this hard. just rember everythign happenes for a reason. God makes people mess up so you can realize when things are right. maybe your should try leaving things as they are. go with what happens. let him go and if he comes back hes yours and if he doesnt he wasnt your t begin with. there are other men out here in teh world who are looking straight at you waiting for you to look back at them. sometimes u have to take a step back and see who is standing right in front of your trying to understand you.

I thank you for your input and really appreciate it... It is a terrible situation I had to end up in and some times I dont think I will survive the heart break... I haven't spoken to him in 2 days which doesnt seem like a long time, but it has feels like a life time. It's very hard... but you have helped thank u