brokenmind
16 years ago
I've recently has a mental heath assesment & i am currently waiting to hear back from them. they mentioned that they will probably offer me dialectical behaviour therapy. im just wondering if any of you have experience with this? |
brokenmind
16 years ago
Yes, but more often than not i dont feel. emotions confuse me. im unable to have a relationship with anyone. romantically n friendship wise. i doubt my identity & constantly feel like a fake n that others in my like erm i dunnoi how to say it :S like people with similar interests (mosher, goth etc scene) dont accept me n im fake, hence why most of my friends are the opposite to me. i have extreme hate towards myself because of the things i do/have done. im often impulsive which is shown in my current money situation n am in 2grand debt. im easily angered by this shame from things i have done. n just confused in general. am i gay? am i straight? i want a relationship. im never having a relationship. i love no one in this world, not even myself. i have no respect for myself or my body n think nothing of hurting myself. i often feel alone as im incapable of loving anyone n think that i will be like this forever. sometimes i think i dont want to live a life like this n that i would rather be dead. but then i dont have to confidence( yes thats right) confidence to kill myself. |
brokenmind
16 years ago
Today im really disappointed in myself because i stayed of alcohol for a month n last night i got wasted. i couldnt help it. i had one drink socially at 4pm n arrived home at 5am after drinking about 10 pints n 5 rum cokes n a fair share of shots. |
Mischaela
16 years ago
You have alot of life to give. You do have love inside. You still have years ahead of you. You are here for a reason. Please consider religion. If not, please do not give up in this life. You were a miracle the day you were born. Stand up and try to smile, and love the little things first. Even if your home situation is tough now, You need to keep your chin up and make it through on your own. You have many friends on this site who love you as a friend and you dont even know them personally. Keep writing and keep thinking on things that have made you happy. Think about them everyday. Dont stop and let the bad thought in. Refuse to let them take control and dont let those negative thoughts rule. |
brokenmind
16 years ago
"^wow, this is a disorder, hell 90% of teens from any generation would be eligible for this diagnosis.....Jesus, Psych's just love putting labels on people....I'll never forget my first psych evaluation, they said I was hyperactive and anti-social. I'm probably the least anti-social person you'd ever meet, I guess it depends what side of the bed you wake up on the day of the testing...hmmmm |