Broken and alone?

Well i come from a broken family...when i was 11 my parents split up and i was forced to live with my alcohlic dad. my parents seperation had a great impact on my life today. growing up with and alcoholic dad and a meth adict mom made things difficult. i feel alone and i cant see why people can back stab and hurt other. i feel the need to try and let myself be heard but it makes things difficult when the man you love is asking for your forgivness after brutally beating you. all my life i was thaught to be respectful and kind to others but does that also count when its the other people hurting you? i feel alone when i dnt have anyone tot alk to. is it just me? i dnt want to feel that i have lost my ex fiance for good. but i feel confused when im with him and alone when in not with him. tell me im not alone.

I can never pretend to understand what having parents who are split up is like, but i do know what you mean when you say you feel alone, the best thing to do is find someone who you can talk to. im not saying that this would be an easy thing. but its what must be done.

hope you can find someone to talk to.

and dont try to understand why people are so cruel to each other...youll hurt yourself in the end by going insane

You're never alone, but that doesn't mean it won't feel that way sometimes.

I had my chance at love with my ex fiance but it all ended so quickly it seens unrealistic. i dnt want to feel alone and hes one of the main reason why i live. should i feel this way? i love and i always will but sometimes he can take it to far with his words and his actions

Any person that would lay their hands on someone they love, does not deserve to be loved by you. I would rather live a lifetime of loneliness than submit to someone's anger and addiction for the rest of my life.

This is really my fears.. i didnt like to have this kind of family someday if i get married.. ( a broken one)

hmm.. well i guess ur not all alone.. coz there are also peole suffering w/ same situation..and all u have to do is to be strong and dont let ur self affect about it!

yeah i understand, its hard to have this sitaution and i know its not so easy to handle and there are times we fell all alone.. but believe me ur not all alone.. coz GOD always w/u.. and he will never leave u.. why it happens! coz GOD has plan and he will never give u a trials that u cant handle.. so just be strong ..

well as u know,, if i had a lots of problem and i really feel so down,, i just take it as a challenge

hmm takenote! life is so bored if we dont have any struggles in life so just enjoy ur life and take all the cchallenge ok

gudluck and be happy! hope i can help...

love lots,
Sweet lig

I feel everything is my fault...maybe i made him be cruel and brutal. could i have been the reason why we didnt work out. i wish iw as back with him but i want proof that he has changed! i want to be loved! like he loved me but without the actions and words he made! is that even possible? and i know God did this for a reason...God makes things go wrong so whe appreciate them when they are right. i just dont want to give up hope!

I cant understand why any one feels the need to hit another person that they are suposed to care for so much...but continuing to be "addicted" to someone who harms you physically or mentally is someone to be avoided.. you will feel alone after losing anything that was important to you. but you cant just go back because you feel alone some times you haft to be strong enough to say no more and to try to find someone else who you can talk to and be with who will not harm you.

use the people you know now to help you find these people to fill your missing space. its not easy to do things on your own all the time

"I feel everything is my fault...maybe i made him be cruel and brutal. could i have been the reason why we didnt work out."

You are sympathizing with your abuser trying to make it okay for them, that can lead to convincing yourself you deserved it and sticking up for them. There is NEVER an excuse for beating or abusing someone and you should never accept an excuse, it just perpetuates that kind of behaviour.

But would it really matter? how do i know he has changed?? he says he has but what proof can i ask for?? i did meet this other that showed me your could be loved without the action of my ex fiance. but the thing is we some ho lost connection and its weird because i was willing to move on for him. but i some how ended up messing up! how do i apoligize to him and make him see that i am a good person and what i did (and i have no idea what i did) was a mistake and that im sorry...

Your never alone. And that parents thing sucks...if you love your ex.take him back under circumstances. If you don't then let him go..your not alone. If you wanna talk just message me, kay. But it'll all work out

You never know, has he gone to conselling? Taken Anger management? Taken any steps to rectify his obvious problem? If he is not willing to seek help chances are it's not a chance you should take. Sounds like you shouldn't worry about being with someone, you have a lot of work to do on yourself. Love should never override logic, think with your brain and not with your heart.

Lol i just had to say, smosh fucking rules man, and I feel for the original poster... like its so hard sometimes, life in general... right now im contemplating giving up. It seems like theres no point, my parents are split to... and it seems like because of my misfortunes no one will ever love me. My dad says u cant rely on girls to make u happy... that they can only do so much, i guess like ur fiance... and u have to do the rest. But it feels pointless without her. U just need to talk, the same way I need to... maybe people like us we'll babble on forever... but we gotta try. I guess.

Love is hard sometimes and confusing sometimes to say the least
I hope you work things out and be happy, its not all about him, feel happy for yourself. despite your live you have still grown up a nice friendly person so yeah
i dunnoz
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Well yea if u guys have any other opinions message me i really have no idea what to do!