Time to turn the tables?

Okay, so i need advice.

I, Kristina, am the 'strong' friend, the counselor, the one no on has ever seen cry, the one who is always happy, the one who knows just what to say when you need to hear it, the crying shoulder, comforter,...friend. I have never went to any of my friends for help because i feel that "i" am the one that people go to. And yes... but i am supposed to be the strong one. but deep down, im falling apart....i cant fake my smile anymore.. i can't hold it in

Anyway, my problem. Everyone of my friends are going through a tough time right now, and every one of them are coming to me. One friend's mom has cancer... again, another is going through divorce, another suicide, another a breakup and maybe cancer, and yet another suffering from deep depression. Every night i am on the phone or computer soothing, calming, giving advice. I dont know why, but i take all this stuff on myself. i make it my problem. and i just can't take it anymore. I have my own problems! But who can i go to? All of my friends are so caught up in their situations that they aren't smart enough to open their eyes and see that, well maybe Kristina is suffering and going through something right now. I have never went crying to anyone, but right now i need someone. Yes, my problems may seem small compared to these guy's, but when i have my problems, on top of theirs, on top of school, on top of work, on top of cheering, on top of dance, im a wreck! Yes, ME the strong one, i am weak right now!

I know i need to be there for my friends because some of them are going through the toughest times in their lives right now...but.. i dont know, maybe im just a selfish child caught up in life.. what should i do!? i need answers.. please, anybody!

Just be there for yourself and your friends
all will work out in the end

Pick a friend and call them up. I know you say that you are the "strong one", but there doesn't have to be a strong one. We are all weak sometimes, and sometimes you just have to suck it up, swallow your pride, and ask for help. There's no shame in that.

Plus, many people feel like they are the one that everybody turns to. but that's not always the case. Maybe they know you need help and don't know how to help you, and feel the exact same way that you do. Let them help, tell them what you need.

Take care.

I want to, so badly... but i feel like i'll just be a burden to them as they are going through so much as it is right now. My problems are petty right now, but on top of everything, to me they feel huge!! Thanks guys for the advice im going to try everything that i can..

I feel like that too...iv got the answers for everyone else but never me...it seems like if i talk ill do to them what they do to me...but i find now that if im too busy helping i dont think about myself...working so far

And usually that is how it is for me. I help them out, my problems are too minor to deal with. But, i don't know, maybe im just selfish.. but now it seems to me like "why can't my problems matter just as much" and these are really getting me down. I tried to talk to one of my friends about this last night *while i was talking to her about whats goin on in her life* but she kept refering everything i said back to herself.. and we ended up talking about her problems again. Im just so flustered right now and im tired of everyone coming crying to me. I want to go crying to someone!

If you need someone to talk to i can listen

^ I had to read that twice.. to fully understand, but it makes perfect sense to me. Thank you so much, that has helped me the most right now..