I feel so alone

I see to be the only person in my house that doesn't ignore all of the negatinity. My parents argu all then time and my little sister ignores everything by listening to her music. It's how she relaxes. Last night my parents were drinking and my mom told me to do something but when I did she got mad and hit me. Not really hard but it kinda hurt. It hurts to see my little sister cry but I can never get her to leave. She doesn't want me around it all by myself because she knows I wont do anything back

I suggest calling kids help line!!
1800 55 1800

ask them! thats there jobs =)

Do u have any relatives? u can ask help for them about ur situation

To everyvody:
I do have an older sister who means the world. But (in my oppinion) because of my dad she moved to Ohio to live with her boyfreinds there. He is the reason I lost any contact with her as we were younger. We dont have the same mom. I reconected and he didnt like it much. He and I clash all of the time because of a huge problem that involved him. my sister and me. And the two otheres I trust the most I haven't been able to contact. I don't trust many people so I won't talk to anyone else..

I think you need to find an outlet (like poetry,music, reading etc) to drown out the noise... of your parents... I also think you need the one person in your life who can listen to you and vent with you... which your older sister filled which is why I think you need to face the demon ( her bf ) and actually tell her everything your feeling... just try to be more brave and talk to her

Noir:
I talk to her as much as I can. She's there for me but it's not the same because I know she's not as close. I can't call her becasue it's long distance and I don't have a phone at the time. I listen to musin and read a lot. And I write a lot. But I read it and it sound so depressing. I know thats how I am but I don't like to keep then. I have a journal I keep it all in I just can't afford my parents fining it. I don't think they trudt me bnecause I can tell all of the time somebody's going through my stuff..

As Noir said, the best thing you could possibly do is find some way to 'drown out the chaos'. I have some of the same problems you describe with my family (mom and dad always fighting, sister is practically oblivious, and it all seems to be crushing down on me), but I find that through writing and guitar, I can drown it out, if not for a day, but until someone screams for me to turn my amp down. And, to be honest, it helps a lot. I don't dwell on it all quite as much, and instead focus my energy into something positive.

Best of luck to you, I hope you can drive these demons away.

I did obay my mom and that's why she hit me. She was drunk. I never disobey them unless I feel it's really not right.