Sence when do you care!!!!

.....my "freinds" were talking to me and they were messing around and they grabbed my coat off and seen my arm.. (coverd in scars and LOTS of cuts..)
and they started lecturing me.. and lecturing me... and they asked me when the last time that i cut was.. and it was like 20 min ago (at school in the bathroom in the back hallway) and they started like flipping out.. but these are the same ppl who have told me sence like 7th grade (now in 9th) that it wouldent matter if i dropped dead or commited suside.. now they "care" that i cut... should i take what they say into consideration...because they have done this kinda thing before.. and after like a week they just gave up and forgot about me...

what should i do...??

It seems to me that they when they saw what you've done to yourself, did what any person who loves and care about another person would do... they lectured and scolded you...

i say to listen to them and not hold the past against them...

I'm just afriad i will put all my trust in them and all my heart into it.. and then get shut down...and once more become susidal..

You shouldn't waste your life in fear of putting your trust in someone... if everyone did that then they'll be no friendships... you need to have faith and build yourself into loving yourself...

we shouldn't waste our time on the if's or buts... we should live life and thank the lord that there are people out there who love us for who we are

Yea... i know... i'm workin at it... just rly rly hard..

I hope you're ok... and thanks for sharing

"these are the same ppl who have told me sence like 7th grade (now in 9th) that it wouldent matter if i dropped dead or commited suside.."

And yet you call them friends?

I said "friends" notice the ("""")....-_-

I would suggest to stop cutting, self mutilation doesnt solve anything...

You can put the "" around friends, but if they really are not your friends and you don't trust them and they have a past of mistreating you, why be around them in any fashion?

I dont think you should stop just because they told you to. i think you need to stop BECAUSE YOU WANT TO STOP.

Well, it seems that since they showed an interest that they did really care deep inside, although it wasn't apparent.

Ex: I had (key word had) a friend who I wasn't exactly best buddies with. We hung out everyonce in a while and nodded to one another in the hallway. Well, I found out he tried cocaine and I flipped the hell out. Suddenly, I cared a lot for him and hated to see him doing something so self-impairing.

Sometimes, people honestly don't give a crap, until they see the horrors for themselves. Its like, for them, seeing the cuts set off that "ok, this is my friend" tic or something.

If you feel they truly do not care, then stop talking to them, but take heed to the fact that if they really did not care, they would've just ignored the scars.

Just 2 cents from a friend :)

People dont understand cutting/suicde
so they just joke about it.
But it becomes more serious when its real.
Your friends obvioulsy care
tho th real thing here isnt them lecturing you, its confronting the WHY, wht is it so bad tht ur cutting at school? your not asking for help to stop, but questionng why all of a sudden your friends care about u. You need to confidein one of them or see a counsellor, its much helthier...
sorry if this sounded naive

Ok...just to clairify i did not tell them i cut... i did not show them on purpose.. ppl who cut and then show ppl are posers and are doing it just 4 attention... and uhh... doctors and theripist just put me on stupid pills which just make you crazy and take away who you rly are... and i have talk to ppl for 1 year... a lot of diff. ppl.. and nothing changes... anymore i just wear my scars and pain with pride.. i am who i am.. even tho i have a problem... i will eventually find a way to get threw it... but thankx 4 the help and suggestions anyways... :).... but yea life is life and i will (hopefully) find a way to get better and find a way to get out of this deppression.... but i havent cut for a day so... thats progress sence i usually cut like every hour.. so i am gettin their..