I feel like dying...T_T

...Im tired of not being good enough..Im tired of giving my all, my EVERYTHING && just being let down...
I hate doing my "pain releivers" just to make things seem okay again...I have so many reasons to live but I just dont seem worth living to those I would die for...
I dont know why..but I am usually the person you see in the hallways with the loud laugh && the permanent smile..Im known as that social butterfly....
Yet none of them know..nor do they see...I am so hurt..
Even if 10 other people are around me..I feel so alone...I just dont know what to do
Everyday I go through this point where I actually think about just finally letting go...

I feel like dying....

The point of this was for those who suffer the same as me to speak their mind && say whats killing them inside...

SO Why do you feel like dying?

^..im sorry..I dont know why im apologizing its not my fault..but I just feel sad to take my life for granted while so many people are actually killing to have a good, healthy life...

^ I hope you get better...

XxBrokenInsidexX , perhaps it's time to start letting someone in.

Yeah I agree

gd luck with watever comes ur way

xx

Well im confused
but either way everything gets better...
thats what i was always told and it is true too....

Ive spent the last few months looking for the "better".....Nothing seems to work....
My boyfriend is the only person I have let in so far && Im scared because we are falling apart so fast && I know once he is gone..Ill suffer worse than now && I wont be able to remember my options 1=There will be a beter tomorrow or 2=Nothings going to change...
Once he is gone things will never change..so I guess by then Ill be out of luck && The only option is....T_T

Pm me and if u hav msn add me u nedd help and non judgemental guidence ... i can help only so much after im done you need to get proper help

I agree with viola .

To me, when your with your friends, you put your mask on...and later you take it off...and all of your emotions flow out...maybe you should take off your mask, or let some one in...i think strangers are the best because you can talk to them and some will listen