OKAY ...

hi, i just need to vent some anger and depression ... anyone online? please cos i think im going crazy here

Yeah I'm online.

Vent away, LOL

Nici.

hi! no it's just one of those days you know where you keep trying to do so many good things, and it all just goes wrong, and people do bad things it seems to go so right fro them?! i kow that sounds playground like, but u know. ive had a bad day an trying so hard not to cut my legs to pieces over it :(

Can you be more specific?

I mean some days just go like that.

My day ain't been that good either. I think if you find something each day that you enjoy (no matter how small) then life is worth living. Like today for me College was a total mess so I log on to my computer and type a few lines about it.

Helps me any ways.

Try not to cut youself up over it though babes, it will just make things worse in the long run.

yer i know its just little things an cos im so depressed anyway with so many problems i just wish the little things could go right, you know? like im trying to raise money for the tsunami thing but it just got all f cked up its so anoying. lol i sound like such a whiner, i know, i dont normally do this, honest

Hey I don't care, you say what you wanna say.

It is annoying when things don't go the way they are planned.

Just don't take it to personally though, there are lots of reasons why things don't work.

Keep your chin up,

Nici.

thanks, its just i have no one to talk to right now, i have all these therapists that say they're there if i need them but lol, its a bit stupid cos they work nine to five u know, and my best mate has so much goin on right now, in fact all my friends do and im stuck in this pit, and my depression wont let me out. do you have depression or anything, dont answer if u dont want to

I have suffered from depression in the past yes. I believ that you never fully get over it, but learn to cope with it that little bit better.

Each day that I can smile or tell a joke I feel that much closer to being happier again.

Don't know if that made sense lol

Nici.

yer it did. but i dunno, do yiou really believe that you never get over it? cos i believe that and my therapists says you do in time, i try and explain i dont have time, time it's whats killing me but they never understand that when i say it

Life will improve.

When I said 'you never fully get over it' I was refering to me personally. That's just how I feel. I know that many other people feel they have recovered 100% from depression. I guess it just depends on the person.

Keep up with the therapy it might just help you come to terms with things.

My theory is that if it's not hurting you then where's the harm in trying?

Nici.

i dunno cos it feels it is write now, the more i talk the qworse i feel cos it drags up memories of abuse an all that stuff i went thru, and its just so hard cos theres no one there at night qwhen im like this :(

(btw i just remembered, u were the one who wrote the poem 'dear teddy'? on my other account i commented on it and voted cos i thought it was really sweet and good, cos i know some people think its sad but they're such a comfort, when i was little i used to pile all mine on the bed so there was barly any room for me to get in lol)

Well cheers for the vote and comment then.

Why don't you try writing a poem on a similiar subject, you never know it may help.

Nici.

maybe i dunno. anyway, thanks for talking to me :) im a wee bit calmer now, my sleeping pills starting to kick in so im goin t go t bed now, thanks again :)

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