Please Give Me Advice, I Feel Like a Freak :(

I'm 17 but I'll be 18 in two months. Actually my age doesn't matter, because the man I'm in love with is 25. The reason I think I'm a freak is that he is my cousin, but I am adopted so we don't share any blood. My friend knows the way I feel about Jason (my cousin) and she thinks I'm a freak even though I'm adopted. Am I??? She thinks Jason's an asshole because he is so good to me, but we both think he's in love with a girl who has the same name as me, but we are not sure. I know what family love is, but he leads me on and shows his love for me in special ways. I don't know if we are just friends or what? I wanna tell him the way I feel but I am so scared. What if he hates me or never talks to me again? I told him over the phone that I felt so alone and like nobody was ever there for me, and he was SO sweet. He apologized for not being there for me and said he wanted to be the one who's always there for me. I'm just so confused. When we first met and we were shaking hands, we smiled at each other for about 2 while minutes. I'm not exaggerating, and now my his sister Nicky knows that something is up because at my other cousins wedding, Jason and I were sitting by the campfire holding hands and he had his hand on my cheek and was like, "I love you babe" but I don't know if that means anything?? I haven't seen him and so long and I just wanna tell him how much I love him. I'm so tired of waiting, but I don't wanna screw things up. Please help!!

Well, if you love him as much as you say you do, the only way to let him know.. is to tell him, in a safe way. say you're alright being good friends if he doesn't feel that way about you, but you want to know how he feels. I don't think you're a freak if you share no blood relation..that's bulls. love is love. the only thing that may matter is the age difference (maturity, experience etc), no offense but older men's feelings/sayings can be exaggerated if you're younger.. because they play the field in friendship. get what i mean? probably not.. sometimes older men are just friendly/flirtacious with girls without being able to help it, and don't realise they're making an impact. he may just be being overly friendly. have a talk.

If you love him...you need to talk to him...i don't think you're weird......you're not even really related.....age doesn't honestly matter as long as you both understand what it means. what matters is love...just be careful, hun..

Aw you're not a freak. Just talk to him...wut do you got to lose?.

Your not a freak, but like tell him ur feelings....and like since your adopted it shouldn't matter...and your parents shuld try to understand, but i know some wont.....just tell him, and see what happens
***aLy***

Your not a freak,..age doesnt matter,try to talk to him,^_^

YOU ARE NOT A FREAK :D
i say , tell him how you feel .

:D