I cried myself to sleep

I cried myself to sleep the night of my 21st birthday. After the drinks had all been drunk and the good time buzz gone and everyone was passed out. I was sober enough to feel the loneliness seep into my soul. I'd been kicked from a bed to sleep alone on a couch. I was so cold that I couldn't sleep from shivering. I physically ached of loneliness. I suddenly just wished I was home in my own bed where I could cry into my pillow. And if I had been sober, I would have driven myself there at 4 oclock in the morning.

It's complicated I guess. I'm involved in a love triangle of some sort where I sometimes feel like I'm being strung along. And I keep letting myself get pulled into it, knowing that nothing will ever come from it but heartache. And I hate it that I do that. I need someone who wants me enough to stand up for those feelings. I know this guy isn't that one and I really need to stay away from him somehow. I think he tries to use me as an escape from the other half of the triangle that he complains to me all the time about but won't do anything about it beyond that. Sometimes I think he doesn't want it to change. But it will change, I won't be there like that anymore. Let them have each other, it's the least of what they deserve. I'm going to find someone who deserves me and who can be completely mine. I've got my hurt and it will surely leave a scar. But I just can't do this anymore.

Thanks for listening, I just felt like talking. I'm not a mistress or anything like that if you think that though lol. He's technically single and stringing her along too by what he tells me. She just refuses to see it. But that's something else entirely.

I feel sorry for you...

try to change the way you look at the world, it might help.
eg. just forget about some stuff, act careless about certain things can help you to relax

Good for you
you do deserve better
its not like there isnt enough people for everyone to have ONE partner lol
feel better sweetie
^_^
i have u in my thoughts

xx

And happy birthday aswell!!!!
:D

xx

You should not have cried yourself to sleep because 9 times out of ten he is not thinkin about you

I dont cry.
theres no point.
i laughh.
its a better option.
:]

You Shouldn't Feel Bad/Sad. You Just Got Trapped, And You Don't Need To Cry! Because People Around You Care For You. All You Need Is Friends. :3