...Regret...

I did it..I did the one thing I promised him i wouldnt do..
I finally walked away...&& the worst part Is I left on his birthday && our anniversary ='[
I feel so much pain && So does he...
I tried to get him back, but he worries Ill hurt him again...
I didnt mean too..I just got caught up...I was scared
The past two days since we have been apart...all I do is cry && think about him..everything I do brings him up in my mind...
I went shopping && I remembered being there with him,
I sit on the computer all day..&& it just reminds me of the times I sat on his lap while checking my email
&& The worst part is how usually music drowns my thoughts..But when I tried that..I remember him singing to me...
Im trying so hard not to call or text him...
But I cant help but regret it...
I lost something so amazing
&& the worst part is knowing he is going to fall in someones arms who dont even deserve him...&& its killing me....

Please Help..I dont know what to do anymore!?!?

I know it would be hard but be like.
i was wrong. i still want you, and need you.
sorry i didn't understand before but know i do.
and i love you more than ever

Everyone hurts after break ups, if you ended things with him you had to have a specific reason and probably a good one since you seemed so grounded in the fact that you wouldn't. Give it time, you'll find someone new and the pain will dissipate.

^^^Thanks for the advice!
I appreciate it & I plan to use all of it in a way..but the hardest one is to get over him...

Shud only forget him if you want to

I think u guys should just sit down and talk, it makes things a lot easier, if u just sit down and explain to him how u feel and how u realize how u feel towards him. if u love him let him know.

if he is to afraid to let u back in
dont force it because it will only make things worse, give it time, i know it sucks, but sometimes thats the only thing that helps.

Haha Ive done the exact some thing. Really the pain and thoughts can be so bad that it can stop you from going into another relationship. I think you should talk to him that everyone is saying. He might wanna hear and if he doesnt than you have to respect that. The worst thing you could do is to keep bothering him. It would annoy me, but im not your ex.

Talk to him..... but w/e you do, do not let it greatly effect your life like school, oher friend relationships, your health, mental thought... etc.

DOnt let it do that ive seen people go crazy because of it... .literally.

^ im trying so hard not to let it bother me..
My friends are sick of me crying && talking about him that they actually havnt called me in awhile && it bothers me..I havnt eaten as much..&& I barely sleep...Im grouchy && I have bad..I mean really bad mood swings.
He called last night && we didnt talk..He was trying to make me jealous by talking about all theses girls texting him...&& it hurt..&& when I cryed, he asked me whats wrong && all I did was say I regret it && he laughed...I dont understand, I think he is trying to put me down so I feel his pain, But I dont think he realizes Im suffering just as much as him....
Well except, He is physically sick..He keeps throwing up && constanlty crying when I call...But then it drifts away && he is mean to me...
I want to just talk to him && hold him just like I used too..I want to tell him it will be okay to let me back in..I just dont know how to do all this...

You made a decision, and unfortunately you have to live with it. If you knew that it was time to break up with him, then try to remember that now. It's not easy, and it probably won't be for a long time. You're young though, and you will find someone else who is better for you. For now, concentrate on getting through today. Take it as it comes, one day at a time.

^ your right..I made a decision..but I regret it && I refuse to stand back && let it eat my life away..I want him && im willing to fight to get him back...
Yea I may be youg..&& everytone keeps telling me "Your young, You'll find someone better"..the thing is Im almost done with High School && Ive been with him since && every guy I meet I compare to him...
There is no way excaping it...We had our wedding planned, our future, our kids..&& I was the stupid one to just let it all slip away...

To much writing i have no patients sorry

I think u shud tell him ur sorry and if he takes u bac DONT EVER make another decision u'll regret

Lol, I left my ex on her birthday/our anniversary. Been there, done that.

Thing is, I left and... then she was a total [insert negative word here] about it. So, I really kinda hate her. I don't feel bad at all :)

^lol he has been mean about it, But I understand why so I dont push it much..Im waiting for him to undersatnd.

If you really want him back you have to wait for him to trust you again. Dont give up just be his friend until he is ready to forgive you. It took almost 10 years to get my boyfriend to trust me like he did when we were younger before i messed everything up and honestly it was worth waiting