*Fragile*

I'm really breaking down. Everyday I make more and more cuts. Nothing's shifting my pain, nobody seems to understand. I'm lost. Help?

ive been there so many times. do u have therapy? cos if u dont u shud really look into it ...

I have therapy for my illness (M.E.) But I don't tend to open up. I don't like it.

i now hows ya feel email me i find it hard to open up but to peps online dat i dont now its sorta easier i wont judge i promise. privet msg r tlk on here if ya want k , luv lidxxXxx

i have an answer it may not be a great answer or if you have equineaphobia then my advice wont work but see my mom has been ignoring my cutting for months now she thinks that if she ignores it it will go away..but i told her i wanted a horse and i didnt think she was listening but she did i got my horse well i went to go see it and ride a bit and i find that riding calms the soul and yes therapy drags you down under but horses no horses make the world go round...well they make my world go round n e ways so if you live anywhere close to a ranch or anything go ask the ppl there if you can ride or if you dont know how to ride ask for lessons..tell them it would prolly save your life if they would just let you ride.... horses can feel the emotions ppl are going through they can feel it through their bodies when you pet their faces and they understand ppl thats my best advice ive never been that open about horse before so i thank you and good luck dont let go ..

love always
~*AngelOfPain*~

Hi hun

I know how u feel, and its so horrible. I also have therapy, and it does bring u down at first, but i think its one of the best things that helps. Maybe its not helpin u cos ur not opening up much? Not sayin that opening up is easy, because it really isn't, and for sum ppl its almost impossible, i went thru 5 months with my psychiatrist with almost saying nothing to him about my feelings or anything, i just let him waffle on, but then when i got the confidence to start speakin about how i felt, it started to help cos i didnt feel so alone and he wouldnt judge me. It might really help u hun, cos at the mo u might be bottling things up..and so that makes the cutting worse??

I know that having M.E doesnt help things, cos i have it too, so i can relate with u on that bit. Have u thort about maybe showing the person u have therapy with, some of your poems? cos they all give a relli good insight to how u feel, and that way u wudnt have to talk about things??

I don't know if this has helped at all, but i jus think maybe it might help to find some way to open up a bit more to the person, cos the increased cutting etc sounds like ur bottling up things, got nobody to tell things to? and mayb feelin reli desperate? Or u cud jus post all ur feelings on here, or u can send me a private msg and i'll email back! :-)

*hugs*

Toni xxxx