Will she forgive me? Please help me!

Ok so everyone knows about me and jasmine and our situation. if not then read the post "i need help" and you might understand the feelings between us. well today she was starting to get annoyed with me, and so i figured it was time for me to tell the truth. i figured it was time for me to confess all the lies i made.

ok well i never said this but ever since i was 12 when i lost my virginity i have only cared about one thing, and well im sure you can figure that out on your own. also i have been selfish and ive only used girls for the past 3 years. well the message i sent to her was all true, but for the first 3 weeks all i wanted to do was get in her pants.

so i lied to her she told me things all the time and i made up a story to make it seem like i know how she felt. after the 3 weeks i realised that i had fallin for her and i felt so bad because i realised how amazing of a girl she was. thats when i fell in love. i became annoying to her because i was affraid of loosing her and i became parinoid and annoying.

i finally got so annoying that she got on me and then i decided to tell her that i was a lie and i had lied to her. and she was super pissed i mean like beyond belief but she says she doesnt care but i could see it in the way she was typing on AiM. after awhile she said somethings like are you gonna talk or keep being an a**hole.

later on she had said that she wanted me to call her cuz no one else would answer their phone, and she has like 200 numbers in her phone so idk if no one really would talk to her or if that was an excuse to make me feel quilty but she wanted to talk to me and hear my voice.

while we where on the phone she was somewhat of a jerk which is totally understandable because of what i did. then sometimes she would act all happy then she would be someone of a jerk. which i felt she did that to make me feel quilty. after awhile she said "ya know i really dont care" and she said it in a jerky way prolly cuz she was hurt and wanted me to feel bad.

so i said "ya know what im sure ur saying this because u r pissed off at me, and im sure in the long run you'll see that i really am sorry and you will listen to what i have to say". i really want to be with her and i feel so bad for what i did. i want her to forgive me and i told her that i also said i can only show you the door but you have to walk through it.

i said if you walk through the door and you will realise that i have changed and that i am really sorry for what i did and i really do love you. she said i have givin you so many chances why should i give you anymore i cant see the point in it. i said "like i said before i can only show you the door and you are the one who has to walk through it."

i really dont know what to do right now ppl tell me i should let her be unless she talks to me or tells me to call her. i mean was her saying that no one was answering their phone an excuse for me to call her? i dont know anymore im confused and lost. i dont want to lose her i love her so much. :'(

Will she forgive you?
-Well, I don't know, I am not God or her. I don't know. But if I were her, I would forgive you...sooner or later, if you would REGRET what you did. And also regretting is not enough, actions speaks more than words.. I don't know if you ever heard this saying "Shame on you if you fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice". Maybe you understood me message?

OK. I think this trust issue is VERY important. I, myself, have been fooled ONCE with a jerk who behaved ever WORSE than you.. And after being fooled, your trust is broken.

Normally (I think) people trusts each others from first moment, unless something comes up which shows these people are not trust-worthy.

I see trust thing like a bubble, once broken, never whole again. When the damage is done, it is difficult to stick broken pieces together.. It takes time...

I guess you realize now how much you HURTED/ ARE HURTING her??? Whoever use you, lies to you, treats you bad is LACK of respect. You really gotta learn the meaning of "respect".

One thing more... Remember this...TREAT PEOPLE THE WAY THEY DESERVE TO BE TREATED. DO FOR OTHER WHAT YOU WANT OTHERS WILL DO FOR YOU.

I hope you learned your lesson...and I wish you all the best in future...

I will pray for you to get a happy ending...Amen.

I agree with the above poster, for the most part. It really is up to her to find it in herself to forgive you. As far as she knows this could all be another elaborate lie, maybe you've gotten so good at it you're lying to yourself. The things you did shouldn't be done to someone you love.

Ask yourself who you are, take a look in the mirror and ask yourself if you'd want to be with someone who treats people like that. Would you forgive you? Knowing full well the things your capable of.

I am not god either though, unfortunately. If you truly love her all you can do is try your best dude, be the best person you can to her and hope she finds it in her heart to forgive you. Even if she doesn't and your forced to move on you should treat every girl like shes gold from the get go... be the person you want her to love all the time.

and gratz on losing your virginity at 12, well done good form.