All Cutting Self-Harm topics post here - #14

This is the only place where posts about cutting belong, either experiences, helpful hints or just sharing...

and please do not disrespect this thread......the cutting I am referring to is self harm, anything other than that will be penalized....Thank you

Okay well if you know me then you know my life is really really messed up and well i have tons of problems and yes i take it out by cutting myself.... everyone is always asking why what does cutting do. well if you are some of these people asking these Q's well my anwser is....
cutting is my control. it is one way that i can control my life when it is out of control. see i control all, if i cut or dont. if i live or dont. if i bleed or dont. how much i bleed. what the cut will look like (ex: i have hearts and names cut into my skin) i can then open up old wounds and remember or i can let them heal and fade away.
Do you understand?
why do you cut?

Because I haven't learned any positive coping methods.

http://hollowstar.fateback.com/selfinjury/selfinjury.html

Why do I cut? I wish I knew... Any answer I give just sounds like an excuse.

I wish i knew why i cut myself i really want to know why i do is it because of all the pain i have came across or is it just because it feels good i wish i knew

Because it's pleasurable punishment.

I cut for the same reasons as megan and firexdancerx

We all cut for a reason and our reasons may sometimes sound like excuses but they arent
when it come down to it we all cut for our happiness...
i cutt to find happiness
while others cut to punish them so they can move on and find their happiness...

cutting is not a habit it is a way of life a way of thinking and believing....
and i am not encouraging it or telling anyone to do it. i am just merely justifying it.
see some people they find out i cut and judge me for it. they automatically call me emo or goth or attention starved. but i am non of that
i am me.
i am a control freak and i love to party and have fun. and yes i love to drink but not to much so that i dont even know what i am doing.
i am special and different and smart and beautiful
i am me...

what are yall???

Very true and i agree with you 100%

im tired of people judging cutters cuz of how/why they do it. if your not a cutter you wont understand and even if you are a cutter you still (sometimes) wont understand another cutters reasons/justifcations.

Yea thats it i like the punichment

Punishment? Happiness? I wish I knew. Someone said that one person might not understand another, thats only because we dont let others know or give them a chance to understand. At least I know I dont, but its not what I know that worries me. I think I cut so I dont hurt others. I remember one time one of my "friends" were yelling at me for some reason and I just turned around and went to my room and instead of hurting him... well you know. And again that just sounds like an excuse to me? I really just dont know or wont let myself know?

"You tried and tried and tried and they always think that you need help, but you don't because you know exactly why you are doing it."

If anyone on this planet believes that they don't need help when they have submitted to self harm, they do nothing but fool themselves. We say people don't understand, but the problem really is they refuse to understand the way we do and think about it in some romanticised manner. Cutting is a habit, whether we want to recognize it as that or not. Use it for relief, punishment, control, whatever, it still just adds to the problems that brought you to it. Try pretending that you are not a cutter and you have kids and imagine if you found out they were cutting, it would be my hope that you wouldn't encourage them to hurt themselves.

No you are never to encourage anyone to hurt themselves only justify why you do it... you need others to understand and not think you are a freak... and i dont think all cutters need help because not all cutters are doing it to kill themselves in fact most are not wanting to die but be happier.... i am sorry but you ^^^ have your own opinion and we have ours.... and if you are so against cutting then why do you do it? i dont want anyone who doesnt cut to start because there is always a chance that you will go a little to deep and it will all be over and i dont want them to take that chance but if they did cut then i wouldnt put them down for it i would raise them up.

and i believe that you only feel like you are making excuses because you have not fully excepted it. and excepted it as a way of life...
i also believe the is more than one tyoe of cutters
there is: i have to do it to be happy
and: i have to do it to fit in
and: if i do it i will get attention
and: i am gonna do it but i wont likt it
and: many many more other types

i am sorry if you dont like my opinions but they are mine we are each entitled to our own....

Trying to help someone who obviously needs it is not putting them down, it is called showing care and concern. Cutting is just a symptom of a much bigger problem. If you never solve the real problem and you accept unhappiness, then yes cutting becomes a way of life. Cutting is a coping mechanism otherwise and even then.

My life has gotten much better than it was....im not as sad as i used to be and i dont feel suicidal but i still like the feeling of something sharp against my skin and the feeling of the cut when it bleeds. i dont wanna do it anymore becuz the scars get hard to hide especially since in one month ill be on vacation and the scars need to fade by then so i can go swimming in a bathing suit not long sleeves....but i drag the razor against my skin anyway...last nite i was hoping to jus skim the surface, a scratch at the most...but i went too far and cut both my arms in slits up and down and my legs a little. many of them bled and the rest were close to bleeding, but the slits are very visible. i dont know wht to do...i do even do it for a reason now i jus do it cuz i cant stop.

Okay for one.... help and concern is one thing and isnt what i meant by putting them down... i meant telling them that it makes them a bad person.... tell them you are there for them and wanna help and you are there if they need to talk but that is it... dont push it or they wont let you in....

and you are doing it because you cant stop? well that is when it just becomes a habit like smoking... dont try to quit cold turkey. try to do it a little at a time... like limit yourself or something...

Then dont stop and dont let anyone tell you you are bad or evil or no good because you cut we all handle things in our own ways and this is just the way some of us handle it. yea it makes us different but it doesnt make us bad...

SO... It is spring break and snowing but thats another story. Im going somewhere for the weekend and probably going to swim. I have scars that I know someone will see since I am going with practically my whole family. Two years ago they all seen them but since then I told them I have stopped and all that fun stuff, and they believed me. Do I tell them they are old scars even tho there is more of them? or do I just tell them? or pretend Im allergic to water and cant go swimming?

Well they are family so they will no you arent allergic to water... are yall going to the beach? because you know salt water makes a cut heal 10 times faster and just being in the beach once will make the cut look older than what it really is. try not to let them see them and if they do try toplay it off like they are old scars and if that dont work. i dont know.

Dude love sucks i yesterday i asked out the hottis guy and he said no it sucks i thought he liked me tho

I stopped for a year :]
and then i started again......
it sucks.
it's like a habit.....
i wish i didnt do it
but at the same time,
i dont want to stop.

i dont exactly know
why i started again.
but i did.
and now its taking over.
it's all i think about.
even when i stopped
(for that year)
i still thought about it....
every second, every day.
never left my mind.
not once.

it makes me feel better.
it doesnt hurt...
(when im doing it)
but it does later.
i like doing it...
the that exact moment.
but i regret it later.
i know i have to stop.
but sometimes...
i dont know why anymore

I use to cut a lot and all the time because i was seriously depressed, i mean if it wasnt for my faith and what i believe in i would probably be dead...then one day my mom saw my arm and that was it she was calm and talked to me...she didnt understand but she tried to help me through, the thing was that it was hard and impossible for me to stop because it was...i dont no how to put this...i guess a lifestyle, anytime i was down, like seriously down, or (i hav anger problems) angery i would go cut...i didnt use a knife i used my shaving razor, but now my mom keeps checking my arms and some days i just want to run upstairs and grab that razor and lock my self in my room with my music blasting but if my mom finds out again then theyll send me to another phyciatrist, which my last one just made me feel even worse...one day i broke down and did cut my self...alot...so after school i colored my arm with sharpie and made hearts and stuff so that when they saw my arm they might just think that it was just old scars and not fresh cuts...i havent cut in about about a month but it was hard as hell and im afraid that one of these days im going break and cut but for now im trying to be optimistic altho that is very hard...i like cutting at the time that i am doing it but then later im like why in the world did i do that? was i seriously that upset? sometimes its just because i hate my self with a passion i dont get or no why i just do and cutting put all my anger and depression and hate for my self away and brought, well, almost like a moment were i can dictate what happens to me weather i live or die....also i was in love with this guy who totally broke my heart and that was when i snapped the first time...but anyway i writing a lot and i hope that someone understand and can relate to what im talking about because when u feel so bad to were u cut yourself, i no i was, really really unhappy...
~xXxBloodandxRazorsxXx

Just for future refrence you cannot make someone stop cutting (I am spreaking throuhg personal experiences) you cannot help someone if they dont want help themselves. And I assure everyone that though you might see yourself as cutting until the moment you die, you wont and to me thats something you should look foward to.All bad things come to an end...

Call me stupid or whatever but its the truth..when I went through hell for around five years I was so consumed in all I was going through I just didnt care anymore. And I admit at times I really do believe I am going to go back to the way I was but my life has dractically improved. I hope everyone who reads this and has self harm issues the best because I know where everyone is coming through....because I lived it for most of my life...

Well yea i have stopped for a while now. i dont know if i like it better but everyone else does. i come from an abusive family and well i was told that if my dad ever seen a another cut on me then he would cut my throat.
but i moved out and started cutting even worse.
now my mom is the only thing that keeps me sane.

Parents never seem to understand why we cut areselves it because of eathier depressin guys/gilrs fucking with are emtions with that is me guys are fucking with my emotions

My parents just ignore it. I guess that they assume that if they don't pay attention 2 it than the problem will go away. And when it does come up, my dad starts 2 cry and say that I'm trying 2 kill myself, etc. And my mom just calls me a whole bunch of names. Like how I'm weak or stupid, that I need help and that ppl that self harm r stupid and stuff. W/e honestly at first it all did bother me but now Idc enough 4 it 2 bother me. It's pointless. I guess that they have their own way of handling it right? I mean it's something that they're not used 2. They both came out of really bad households and they survived and I guess that they assume that since mine isn't like theirs that I should be stronger. And it's not like I'm weak. Well at least I don't see myself like that. It's just that I handle thing differently. I mean my dad smokes when he's upset and my mom drinks and I cut. I personally don't see it as any different. I mean they're killing themselves slowly, what difference it is? I mean I'm not really killing myself am I? Ahh who cares. I don't so y should or would any1 else? And I'm just making a statement u guys don't have 2 really answer my questions

Okay i think that they arent paying attention to it because they think you do it only for attention. and no i dont think you are weak i think that you are very strong just in your own way.and no you arent killing your self but you could by accident. they are killing themselves, but i cant say anything when i get upset i either drink cut or smoke. just depending on how upset i am and about what. i will alwyas anwser your Q's so feel free to ask anything.

Yea my parents have me going to a conclers office because of it lol he trys to get me to talk about wats going on lol i just flip him off i wont tell him at all lol lmao

My friend barjed in on me in a change room once when we went shopping ages ago and saw all the cuts on my legs and that, that i had been hiding. she went and told the school councellor i guess cos she thought i was 'crying out for help' or so they said. anyway, the school had this policy that they had to tell my parents, they got called to the school and we had to have meetings i had to see the councellor for months and months in school and it was the worst. but my parents did the, 'im really worried about you and im sorry for all the things i have done wrong against you' thing for about 2 days and then just ignored it like it never happened. it is a really tough thing for parents to cope with. and i am not justifyin any parents actions when they do ignore it. but when you think about it, i am sure ther are alot more positive ways to deal with pain and hurt and depression than self harm, just as i am sure there are better ways to deal with finding out your daughter/son has been cutting themselves than ignoring it. people act and react instinctively we cant control all the time how we cope with things. what i am saying is i totally understand everyone has their own reasons for doing it and no one but yourself is going to understand what it is that you get out of it but i also understand that it is a very difficult thing for people to graso and deal with happening to someone they love. especially when they arent doing it themselves it is percieved as a much more self hate thing and never acknowledged as a self help method i guess, as it can be for some people. on the plus side tho, i havent cut myself for just under 2 yrs and have no desire to anymore :)

Hi beautiful chaos im back so you know what that means.I hate this its ugly and it sucks.

I went totally CRAZY during my spring vacaction, which was for only 5 days, but now i'm back on track again. i'm sooo happy now that i have my razor back. :)
it's a feeling of knowing that you can still feel

OMG Cory, funny thing is I was just thinking to myself yesterday, that I had not seen you on in forever.

Yeah i know i was actually happy for a couple months.lol.
I'm glad to see you too.You always have the best advise.

Lol that depends on who you ask, but thanks, glad you at least have had some happy time in the chaos we call life :) I assume by your return then that we are back in the weeds?

Yeah glad i had some good time but happiness just builds you for a fall.

Very true there, cory

Sorry to be rude but this forum is for those that need help not reunions.

but to ^^^ i agree there are better ways to deal with things than to cut and there are better ways to deal with your child cutting and sometimes we dont make the right decision. my parents ignore it 50% of the time and are overprotective the other 50%. they always ask Q's about it and sometimes you just dont wanna talk abou it you know. but my parents.... well see when i get mad and upset i always wanna be by myself and they have got to where i cant go anywhere by myself if i am even the littlest bit upset. cuz they think i am cutting. I AINT EVEN ALLOWED IN THE BATHROOM ALONE WHEN I AM UPSET! it gets sooo annoying.

Sorry to be rude but in case you didn't notice we are both cutters and were discussing the reason behind the return, don't like it don't read it, no one addressed you.

When i dont cut for a little while it becomes all i think about
i dreamm about it, think about it, wish i was doing it...
and i cut a few days ago but last nite i didnt wanna so i stuck pins in myself...i bled but only for a few mins..it was jus enough to make me feel better
but rite now i have the urge to cut even more so badly
i can usually shake the urge away but its VERY strong
i dont know why, cuz im feeling fine besides tht, everything is going great

Sometimes we get so used to it, that even if things are fine the urge is still there. Some days are stronger than others and there isn't always a rhyme and reason behind it.