Love lust or fear..it's been a year.

Well my boyfriend and I went through hell to be together, but we won. We were together for almost a year. Though him and I fought often we loved eachother verrry much. Well a while down the road, I had made one mistake too many and he broke up with me.

I still see him in school but he ignors me. And sometimes he'll be at my friends house when I go, but when its just him us and our friends he's all over me and making sexual jokes and what not. The thing is though when I see him in school I want to melt his heart when I pass by, when im with him at a friends house my heart is racing and I wanna make him want me. But when I'm not with him i dont really care. But when I go to sleep I think of what I could have should have done however now I dont get as emotional about it.

How do I know if I'm still in love with him, or if it;s just lust..or maybe even a fear o letting go?

Honestly i couldnt be anymore confused. I get the butterflies when I see him...but I do get those other feelins as well. But when im with him..like me him and our friends..i cant help but stare at him and remember wut used to be...like ill remind myself ' u'd be in his arms right now instead of across the room from him' stuf like that. and i cant help but flirt with him.

You really do like him thats all

It sounds like he's using you and tring to mess with your emotions,I can tell your still love him b/c you wouldn't feel the way u do.Believe me,I've been where you are,a year and 6 month's ago.Don't let him get 2 u.Just tell him "NO".