Why does he still act like that?

A friend of mine, Also my ex. Always problems with him and fights with him. anyway

He told me that Ive hurt him a lot cause of mine suicide actions, And always talking about I want to die, Even have tried once, But didnt work. And I wanted to die because he always act like he hates me and such things, But why does he always act like he hates me? While I hurt him if I want to kill myself??

Yeahh sometimes I cant stand him, But Ill always fall a sleep with the thoughts that I love him so much. Only I dont understand that he ignores me at school.. And talks to me at msn >.< I think talk or never talk to me.. Not like that. I cant be happy cause of him. And how he act. He cant help me. But he can make it worse? I want him back as my best friend. How can I do that?

Hehe guys are really weird.. Well I try also to show him Ive got over him but it doesnt work :S Is he really over me? He is like a puzzle to me..

No I never had thought of hurting people.. I even had hurt people I though they hate me :S But now I dont have suicial thoughts anymore. Cause it never would work, And you never get more of killing yourself, I hope you dont have suicial thoughts anymore?

I think if we had killed ourselves other people would do the same. And so goes everyone dead on the same, And before you know theres no more world.. And I was trying to think of otherss.. Well good job. -.-

How I would act, shocked, mad, Go after him. NOT TO DOING THAT. If he did that I had kill myself to :| I was selfish? cause of how he act to me :S I dont know. All I ever want was him, And not losing him. I though Im better off dead. Cause many, many people acting like they like me, But they dont like me at all.

I finnaly got my answer, He told me he had loved me, In a strange way it did hurt when I heard that,, And I was beginning to cry :S for 3 minutes or so, And than I was asking him if he still loves me. But didn't want to answer that, And than I realize, ive to let him go, Cause now I know how he felt, And I dont want him to hate me, So I get to his house have gived him the stuff I wrote about him. And walked away and send a message:

Now I know that you really loved me, I will try my best let you go. But remember: I always love you the most till death finds me.

I hope it works.. I want him as my best friend and wanna love him and wanna hug him and kiss him and like all those things, But I dont think thats gonna happen. Soo I will go away..

Do you think is that a good idear/way?

One question to. Are you doing okay, after that you also had suisial thoughts?

Good question, you have to ask him that.. Cause he doesnt want me to tell me he loves me. But I think he still do. In someway... but still act like he never had cared.. And never wanna talk about it. But ive left him a box and said to him that Im letting he go..

Ill read it ;) thats good your okey now..

If my mom did it well Ill did it to, But if one of my friends did, I also did it to.. I hate pretending. But sometimes im also pretending to like someone, But i think its stupid.. we are all lying to each other., and still we say. 'I never lie'

I dont care that much about it anymore. Cause almost everyone is pretending. so why should I even care.. ?

woow 100 times thats too much to handle?

Do not ever think of killing yourself. You will ever know how your future will be. He would definately forget about you in time and marry some other girl and having a great time with his life years on. Look at these kids with cerebal palsy and paralized in wheel chairs. They would give anything to have that good set of legs, or someone blind that cant see. If you ever feel depressed please go to a doctor to get an anti depressant. These really do help. Please believe. Take care.

Yes I know now that it doesnt matter if I die,, People will go on without me.. soo .. But what am I now that Im still alive?