In my heart but Out of my mind

I broke up with the Love of my life 2 weeks ago..&& For the first week i thought I would never be able to live..for I was too broken..I popped pill after pill just take tha pain away...We havnt talked much since then, but I must say Ive kinda got over the heartbreak..I mean I still Love him more than anything..its just not speaking to him or seeing him anymore...isnt as bad as I thought it would always be...Im not so sure Im officially over him..I mean I cant find myself attracted to another guy..but I know my mind is not attached as much..
I can finally listen to our song && read the sweetes && saddest love quotes without crying & thinking of him...It felt so good to be able to not go to sleep in tears for the first time in forever...Though Im missing him more than anything..I was missing my smile more =]
Im just so happy to finally be at rest in my head....Now my heart needs to break free...though I know that wont happen anytime soon...I just have to let Love && Pain run its course...

What is seems to me,his is friendship that you had before. All you want is a friendship and nothing more. You have feelings for him for the fact you say you loved him.well thats a give in. But all it seems to me is you want a friendship,tell him that.
But if he start to act stupid when you tell him that all you want know,then you know that you have to wait for the friendship for he is not over you yet.
I know how that is not finding yourself attracted to other guys, but give it time,maybe all you need is to have a good time and be single.