I saw something amazing today...

I saw something really amazing today and it was a man and he was just smiling for no reason not because a joke was being said it was because he was just enjoying life he was happy and it made me realise why dont we all do that? why dont we just forget about everything that is going to shit in our lives and just make the best of it? why do we have to get so stressed out and then not have fun?

Thats awesome guys! All of it!
Last night I was crying in the rain, and my new next door neighbor came over...shes five, but she just came up, and said "dont cry! its alright! You look beautiful, and you have a nice family. its alright!" and she doesnt even know me. I thought it was cute, it made me smile!

It rained today...that was worth smiling over. it never rains here...it's so beautiful.

I used to smile when i saw jake.
now it makes me worse.
i smiled when we played "crappy sack" today. that was funny.

you're not hopeless, babe.

Oh wait! something more amazing!!!
i saw myself lose great friends.
wow.

I used to smile when I had Nestor with me...but now I dont... and that makes me sad... i dont feel loved... like real love...