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Our Images, His mistakes
They mock me night after night
Forcing me to saty awake

Just the pain it brought
Ive been up each night
These walls Ive fought
When noting was going right

I just wanted you to stay and love me
Or was that just to much to ask of you
Im pretty sure its stupid to cry over this
yet I still do

Praying I'll wake up one morning
able to say Im over it
To smile
And finally just forget

And finally just forget
for now i stop recording
on my hand held recorder
this time is when i pick up

My life as if its water,
rushing down the river
like magic faries crying
this minute is when you realize

these tears are meant for crying.
so now i put the machines away
and venture out my past
i wish to lock things away

in my biggest suitcase at last
for each minute this continues
to embrace my soul
like the sun

its this moment i wish to venue
all these golden secret gloves.
Step by step i take
for every minute im awake.

For every minute I'm awake,
My eyes are cold,
My smiles fake,

I watch the ground,
You pass me by,
I never even caught your eye.

I never even caught you eye
even when your were by my side
cause You've always been looking away
and it's just like the other day

And it's just like the other day
Yea, the day you walked away
My whole world turned gray

Everything has fallen since then
I fall alseep crying
Wondering what could have been

Wondering what could have been
if our dreams had had flight.
Would you hear my heart singing,
or maybe weep at loves sight?

Or maybe weep at loves sight?
Tears that ever last
Each worthless drop
Just for a chapter in our past

What has this so called love become
I feel a hate so strong
No more Heart felt feelings
everything turned out wrong

Everything turned out wrong
When I tried to put on the thong
It seems it got stuck
I can't do this with all my junk

=D

I can't do this with all my junk,
my head's soaked, sinking sunk.
A drowning child, a worthless runt,
Yesterdays sorrow, an eternal drunk.

Yesterdays sorrow,
An eternal drunk,
Tomorrow is dying,
Heaven has sunk.

Heaven has sunk, becoming so hot
Hells doors open release the rot
Wings of white scream in fright
The torrid flames lick new heights.

A furnace of hate incinerates
Burning fate, those golden gates
Pull down their magnificence
Feel my demonic belligerence

Feel my demonic belligerence
Pouring from my soul
You won't escape its savage reach
Never, you'll be whole

I'll make you feel the way I did
Tit for tat my love
Nothing here on earth can save
Nor heaven, up above

Nor heaven, up above
Can darn this gaping pain
Chewing maggots crawl
Within this senile brain

They devour ever hour
Memories of pitied me
Perhaps it's just as well
Please give me insanity.

Please give me insanity.

This dying common sense,

Seeks the walls of institution,

My mind, I need to condense,

Your soul subjected to prostitution.

Insanity, my self found haven,

the barriers of society diluted,

Trapped alone, peeking at a raven,

The essence of mankind polluted.

The essence of mankind polluted
Right and wrong has been diluted
Destruction cannot be disputed
Lines we've drawn, far past unsuited

Lines we've drawn, far past unsuited
we've gone way down, far down, deep rooted.
while keepin the faith
in this unmeaningful life
while makin fun
and geting in strife
teenagers just love to have fun
girls love there friends
boys are just hung

Boys are just hung
if you know what mean
wait, that's what you think?
I meant from a tree

I meant from a tree
you can hear its sound.
place ear upon bark.
you'll hear it quite loud.

You'll hear it quite loud.
He's screaming it proud.
Now I know it's hard to understand.
But at least he's boasting like a man.

But at least he's boasting like a man.
his flesh and blood, both understand.
Upon this Earth, born to live and die.
Life's journey only to realise.

Life's journey only to realise
the thing you couldn't have seen
to discover who we really are
or to see what we could have been

the path that we must cross
is slowly coming near
so take my hand, and not my heart
for loving you is what i fear

For loving you is what i fear
I'm scared to let our hearts grow near
I've never given my heart out
but I guess that's what life's about
here we go, one last deep breath
Time to dive in, before my death
I hope you're the one i need,
For without you i would surely bleed.

For without you I would surely bleed,
Fall to the floor,
Drowning in tears,
Screaming at God.

Defying logic, I would deem life over,
Warmly embracing defeat,
I would wallow for eternity,
Praying for death.

On second thought,
It is a beautiful day out,
I think I'll wander down to the beach,
Swim in my new found freedom.

Swim in my new found freedom
and bath in truthful rays
that graceful presance of your love
has slowly trickled away

and now i find myself
the only one in the land
because i need sometime to be alone
no one to hold my hand

No one to hold my hand
I'm finally breaking free
I need some time to be alone
i need some time for me

I need some time for me,
Just leave me alone,
I have to go out in the world,
And face the great unknown.

And face the great unknown,
it seems to be my greatest fear...
but fear is living, and oh my God,
I think I'm dying, dear..

I think I'm dying dear,
my eyes no longer fear.
They have seen a baby die
and a lonely mother cry.

Death etched on crystal ball
Observed by one and all.
Bloodstains on salty cheek
Solitude in winter bleak.

Solitude in winter bleak
Silent heart dare not speak
Windy whispers
Lofty flames
Barren dreams
Blooming shames

So vengence is mine
to take when I will
so I lurk in shadows
just waiting to spill

Just waiting to spill,
Man yearning to fulfill,
Another hope burnt,
Heaven & hell, God sent.

Heaven and hell, God sent
i don't know which way i'll go
because i haven't found you yet lord
but someday i will know

But that someday hasnt come
she is lost, doesn't know where to run.
reaching out to her futeure,
her present pulls her down.
she deserves so much better,
she deserves a crwon

She deserves a crown
But she's trapped here in these chains
Bound by all the bitterness
That's running through her veins

That's running through her veins,
she tries to forget every memory,
but in her heart her love to him still remains

But in her heart her love to him still remains
Even after all the lies,
He put her through so much pain.

He put her thru so much pain,
but his memory is still carved in her brain,
she still wants to have his last name!

She still wants to have his last name!
even though his thoughts are not the same.
She hates the thoughts within her head
thoughts of forever lonely in her bed.

She torments herself until she's weak
thinks dark thoughts, she dare not speak.
His face corrupts her once sane mind
those word he said, so cruel, unkind.

Madness melts her pretty face
deranging patterns in blackened lace

She knocks his door and sees his wife
in one swift move, she stabs her knife.

upon the floor she bleeds her breath
a shocked expression nevertheless
She came to tell her of the affair
now she's dying, a wife just stares.

Now she's dying,
A wife just stares,
Life should have taught her,
Such secret affairs.

Just moments of lust,
It doesn't last long,
If it must be a secret,
It has to be wrong.

It has to be wrong,
It can't possibly be right.
It wasn't love,
But lust at first sight