What Am I Not Doing Right?

Ive tried harder & harder to pretend its okay..& I began to believe that I was okay without him && for awhile I thought I was... We didnt talk for 2 weeks after the brake up..&& All of a sudden he messages my best friend asking her how I am && stuff...So she being that "good" friend tells him im miserable && im falling apart without him..I mean yea at first I was but that didnt make it better to actually tell him..SO the next day he calls me && tells me he loves me..I mean we were together for a long time so yea the Love was definitally real...But I just got upset because I do love him with all my heart..&& I swore the more I lied to myself the more I beliveed I was actually over him...&& it just hurts more than ever to Love & not have....I just dont know what to do...I want him back...Loving him was great at first..We had our lives set out together..& then came the drama & the pain..&& I just thought Loving him became to hurt too much..then I walked away..&& Now im realizing..Loving him && Not having him Hurts alot more than anything....I just want him back....I just dont know how or what to do...?

"What Am I Not Doing Right?"

You're telling a bunch of virtual nobodies what you should be telling the boy you think you love. Good luck. :)

Yea I know I should tell him..I had the chance too Last Night..He called for the first time in 2 weeks last night && he asked me "WHy does it hurt so much?" I just said "Theres alot to it" && before I know it he starts sounding shakiy && says "You really loved me huh?" I said "Yupp && I still do" && before I know it he is crying his eyes out && then he barely stops to just say he has to call me back && when he called back he asked me to go see him && i was excited && agreed..Until today My friend was acting stupid So i have to go tomorrow...It sucks..But im glad I got to talk to him ya know