*Scared to c what may happen8

Alright so im like counting down the days now...the days until i ship off for bootcamp and we really find out whats going to happen between me and my bf. We have been together for a year n like a month and we havent really talked too much about what is going to happen when i leave because everytime we try to i just get really sad and he just doesnt seem to want to talk about it. But now the day is getting closer and i still dont know what is going to happen....any advice...what would you do?

Well i have boot camp for 2months and then i come back for a day n then i have schooling for 7weeks and then depending on if i ship off over seas or if stay in the US determines how long i can stay with my family before i leave but 22 days is the longest i can stay...

See thats the thing im the one NOT trying to ingnor it and last night i brought up the issue and i asked him "Honestly when was the last time you thought about me leaving and what you wanted to do when i leave?" and he said that he doesnt think about me leaving. What does that mean, does it mean he doesnt care, is he scared like me, what does he want???? Im so lost and confused and i really dont want to go to boot camp with all this on my mind i really want to figure out whats going on so that i dont have nothing to worry about you know?

No more advice?? I would really apprectiate it.... :-/

Yea i understand what your saying and i know i should be asking one question at a time its just i'm so scared and all my feelings just pour out of me so fast and i lose track of what i am really tryin to say. But i leave for boot camp for 8 weeks and then i come back for a day and then i do to school for 7 weeks but during school i can cum home during the weekends if i have a car and then depending on how i do in school decides where i am going to live and if i go over seas then i will have 21 days til i leave again but if i stay in the U.S then i have a little less but i can also fly home or fly people out to see me....we are doing a lot together before i leave like we are going to six flags, and the dells, and to discovery world and i dont know we are really trying to apprecaite each moment but it just makes me more and more sad every day that i think about it you know?