When was the last time you cried #3

On my birthday, which is today.

^ Happy birthday, sweet heart!
*Gives you a cupcake with a candle*
Make a wish? =)

I cried yesterday becauase I was so happy whenever I heard his voice again.. its been 7 months.

Last time i cried was when i said goodbye to my dad before i served a year in Baghdad.

Yesterday, i really missed my ex

Right now. . . .
Thinking of another girl with him. .
It hurts. A lot.

Last Night.

A few days ago.
my mom started yelling at me for accidentally leaving a pen on the floor. she started saying how i need to clean up after myself and stop makin messes and it just really got on my nerves.

Ive been feeling like i need to cry for about an hr now....i feel like the worst person on the face of this planet.

I cried, like, two hours ago.
Because I miss my best friend.
I've not been able to talk to him much.
Because he moved to a different state and hasn't had much of a signal on his cell phone.

;[

I'm crying... right now.
I have been so in love with this guy.
Ever since September of last year.
I... confessed my feelings for him.
We dated but had to break up since he moved.
So I told him I still loved him.. even through distance.
And he just said he would always have feelings for me, but it was hard to feel the way he used to when we're apart.
And just said that he's glad I'll be okay if he finds someone else... thanks...

My heart is killing me.

I cried on Tuesday...

I cried yesterday from hay fever. My eyes were itching that bad, had to keep squeezing each one to get them to water.

I had a few tears tuesday night, cuz i was in pain.

*Hugs*
Thanks hun.

I cried a little bit today because I know he may be gone soon. And I really don't want him to go.

The last time I cried that I can remember was when I was nine and I saw my cat get hit by a car. I didn't cry when my Mom died, and I don't really know why though. I'm not sure if thats healthy or not.

I haven't cried in ahwile but I can feel it coming. My sister is having a baby and she doeasn't want it.. but I do.. Oh, how I want it so badly. I guess I should be happy that she is living with me and I will get to help take care of him. But I feel that I will never have my oppertunity and I will die lonely and without children of my own.

Today. Me and my boyfriend are taking a break for awhile and I could hear the hurt in his voice when I told him. There was that and my mom was pushing my buttons and it was just too much. )):

I cried myself to sleep.. last night. On my damn birthday. It was because I can only talk to my ex-boyfriend who I love so much on msn. But my mom refused to get off the computer. Last night was the last time we'd ever talk until he moved into a different house. I wanted to give him my number so he could possibly call me. But I didn't have the oppurtunity... I laid in bed forever. When I finally heard her get in bed, it was 5:30 am. Too late.

Now. because my grandma has replaced w/ her her boyfriend. my boyfriend is feeling really down in the dumps right now and im terrified he's going to do something to himself. and im terrified hes going to leave me again...

i just want to murder myself.
though that's called suicide.
murdering myself sounds better.
...
=[

I am crying right now, because....
I found out that he was cheating on me. And I found out the hard way, too. A friend showed me his myspace. His main friend was *His Name's* Property. Pictures he sent me that he said were for ME he said he took for some girl named Brianna... and she commented on the same picture saying it was her phone background. I can't believe it. I want to die.

PS: Wow.. I realized that I cry A LOT.

I cried just two nights ago and I have been crying a lot these few nights. I am certain that my life is totally hopeless and nothing and no one can save me anymore. I have decided that living for another day means to endure another 24 hours of despair and sadness. And it looks as though all my sorrows are irremediable.

I was being absoutley patheic and crying almost right in front of the boy's house that i like

Lat time I cried was 2 night ago, when i realized that its my fault that the guys i love end up walking out of my life....

I cried myself to sleep last night
...because im just kinda scared to get hurt again..
im really fallin for this guy & i just got out of a heartbreak 3 months ago...I just cant go through another heartbreak...I just dont want to....Im so scared..so...so...scared

This morning
because i realized i dont recognize my world anymore

i am so lost.

Today because i was watching maury and it was very emotional! a father got a divorce 30something years ago, and he didnt know his wife was pregnant at that time. so now shes like...30something and she contacted him. and they went on maury, and he WAS the father. and i just started sobbing justlike them... lol. x.x

2 days ago...i had a bug in my eye and i thought maybe it would come out if i cried and it was just like "flow out"
but no i had to dig my finger in my eye and get it out

Last night. I was watchng a sad episode of Scrubs on TV. I was crying more than the characters...lol.

I cried last night. My best friend told me so many things. Didn't hold back. Told me about the things I was doing and why it upsetted her so much. I had no idea. It hurt me to know that my idiotic decisions were hurting the people I love. I couldn't take it.

A couple hrs ago because i was so frustrated @ work that i was doing everything by myself while everyone sat around and talked. =[ we had 5 FULL racks of clothes to put away, and i had to do 4 all by myself before anyone helped me. by then i was so exhausted and pissed off....i nearly went into a killing spree. lol.

gah.

and i cried early early this morning [like 4...before i went to sleep. wait it was like...5?]. because i think he is just using me....=[ despite my heart is all for him. i just think hes pretending to care for me....-sigh- but thats nothing new....

A little while ago
I was listening to The little girl-John Michael Montgomery
[Great song btw]
and looking at a picture of me and my dad from when everything was okay..:S

I'm crying now because Ethan called me last night ,drunk, telling me how much he misses me and how much he loves me and how he thinks about me every minute of the day.Then he wanted to turn around and talk about his new girlfriend Tabatha.We've only been broken up for a little over a month and he's already moved on to a girl that he just met and she's 'perfect'.He spends everyday with her.I remember when that use to be me.I mean I'm in another relationship now with Dylan but,I hardly ever get to see him.How is this pain supposed to go away when I know that he's out having fun with a girl that took my place and I can't even see Dylan?Plus,Ethan is drinking a lot and he's getting into some really serious stuff and there is nothing I can do about it.I feel so helpless.It's killing me because I know that I still love Ethan.I can't get away from these memeories in my head.I remember everything and the stupid little things that didn't even matter break my heart now.I know this is long but,I just can't stop.I don't know what to do anymore.

I cried a hour ago bcuz i jus told my gf tht i luv her ..and i was afraid tht shell freak out...

The last time i cried was yesterday before i woke up and i was still lying in my bed
i had cried myself to sleep the nite before

i was sick and i didnt see a reason to get up, i hadnt talked to him in a few days and hadnt seen him in almost a month

I'm crying now because i still love him and i don't know what to do anymore-there isn't a single day that i don't cry because i miss him so much

Crying right at this moment.
my bf just died..

got a call from his parents work.
--suicide...

Last night
....he looked me in my eyes & told me he would miss me & i just fell apart...
He just held my hand & kept reassuring me it would be okay & that he loves me & when I get back we can get married & start our lives together...
I dont want to go yet...but I have to & though it hurts I'll be back in his arms really soon