No one seems to understand.

Yes this guy has been useing me but there is alot more to the story behind me and how i feel about guys.

Ive been trough alot in my life, my dad is longer in my life cuz he chose drugs over me and almost took my life becuz of it, my mom has also done the same. Ive been moved around to many places and been picked on and made fun of for just the way i am.

Yes i may be too young to be having sex and too young to be doing many things i do but in a wierd way it makes me feel real it makes me feel like someone will notice me in my life. Yes it may make me a slut but wat im trying to do is make my life but no one seems to understand.

I have had and abortion, i have been cheated on, i have been raped, i have been left in the middle of no were all alone, i have been beat, but wat its not all my fault .

I just want someone to understand.

^^ Well said Bob

You say your parents both chose drugs over you and now you are choosing constant pain over happiness in return. False love and attention doesn't fill the gap. If you don't care about yourself, how can anyone else?

Ok I havent gone through everything you have, but I don't have to to know what you're feeling. It's not easy having to learn to grow up and protect yourself at a young age. I'm 16 and I haven't lived with my parents in about 2 years. I live in an apartment provided by child care services. I've had to take care of myself since I was about 11. And I don't agree about you being too young for sex. If there's one thing I've learned it's that age doesn't always matter. If you know the consiquences and are willing to except them, and if you know how to be safe then I believe you might be better prepared then a quarter of the sexual population. Moving is never easy. When I frist moved out of my parents house I left my school district completely. I missed a lot of my friends, but I had to suck it up b/c I was considered an adult now. Can you imagine? A 14 year old adult, let me tell you it wasn't easy. I lost a lot of my friends to drugs, which I'm going to admitt, is a path I've walked down before. There was one difference between me and my friends who used though. I didn't have the parental advisory to warn me or scold me. Luckly I learned that lesson on my own. It was also very hard. I'm just here to say I understand what you're going through and if you want to talk pm me.

Hunni.. you're putting yourself into a position where these people can hurt you. You aren't doing anything about it. You've let yourself be in a screwed up relationship with some jerk that is only using you for sex just because you feel like you matter to somebody. Trust me, he could care less. It's sad but it's true. You've got to accept that and realize that you aren't a piece of trash. Don't let him or anyone else treat you that way. You know you're better than that and you could change your life around if you only tried.

Stop whining and embrace the advice that has been given to you here. We are just trying to help you. Look at Bob's list... you should try it. You'll feel so good about yourself if you only try to turn things around and shape yourself into a better person. You have been through a lot and you can take that and help others that are also going through similar experiences. Just try it out... then you'll start noticing the positive things in life instead of all of the negative.