I need help with my ex.

The emotional pain is hurting so much it's turning physical. However, I finally figured out a way to get over him. I need to get him to slap me. really. Am I crazy or something? I am reslly desperate. Please don't say that since I am young and stuff it doesn;t matter. It really does.
Please,
xoxZoexox

I have been hanging with my friends. It's been over 4 months. I have done everything to try and get over him. It's impossible. Probably what hurts the most is that everyone always said that if your relationship ever ended it would be me that caused it. Also, I was there for him whenever. I was there for him when his mom died, I was there when he got into a fight with his friends, I even put his little sister to bed! I was there all the time.
THen he cast me away like a dirty sock. It hurts, it really does.
xoxZoexox