DIY: I Smiled Today #48

I smiled because he finally said he missed me too....

only to begin sobbing because he's been talking like hes going to kill himself for the past 30 minutes....=[

sry.
just brought the mood down...

"i'm not cool i don't think i ever will be. i'm an outcast....always will be. i'm not good at guitar. i can't write. i messed up my voice from smoking...i felt like i was going to die last night cause itwas hard to breathe"

then

"i'm going to die young i know i will. i'm going to die alone no kids or anything. i might as well sell my guitars and my drums...cause i'm never going to live my dream of making it big"

then

"i'm not going to make it big i know it. i'll always be the one behind the scenes never getting any credit"

hes having his midlife crisis..and hes just about to turn 19 =/ i dont think he realizes that hes just starting life and has plenty of time to try...and idk what hes talking about. hes amazing @ guitar. lol...

-sigh-
i feel the end nearing....it should be any day now...=[ [that he breaks up w/ me, not that he dies...just clarifying]

Wow... umm.. sweet heart...
Why would you wanna be with a guy like that, anyways?
He sounds like he doesn't know what he wants, is unsure about things, and just really isn't ready to commit to anything right now.

I smiled today because I was called gorgeous =)

=]

i smiled because he said "i love you and miss you"
haha.
=]

and i know hes unstable and what not. we both are. i think that's why we always end up back together. because we have everything in common...lol. i think we're both bipolar to be completely honest with you.

just my opinion ^.^

I smiled today because I got my tooth pulled out and know the pain is on it's way to getting better :o)
I also smiled because I have the bestest ever girlfriend and she never fails to amaze me :D

I smiled today because I'm going to get the boyfriend from work in about an hour.

I smiled early early this morning aka 2am because i was in my boy's arms and he told me that he missed me tons in the past few days we've both been busy.

i smiled because work was the funniest its ever been today. i laughed like...30 min at least. lol

i smiled cuz my party is saturday!

i smiled cuz im actually happy, and very much loving my boy.

I smiled today because every time I see the fireworks that people are illegally setting off at the moment, I think of him. And every thought of him gives my life meaning.

I smiled today because, like always, we had our "you're more amazing" fights. He always says he wins, because he thinks I'm more amazing than he is, but there's no way he wins that one.

I smiled today because I miss him and we've only not been talking for a couple hours, and I love missing him, because it makes getting to talk to him later even better.

I smiled today because I love him so much, and I'm a lucky girl. :]

I smiled today because I'm going to watch the fireworks! :)

I smiled today because:

its been 2 weeks...^.^ 1.5 more and we'll have a new record =p...we've already beaten 2.5 of our relationship lengths...=]

im watching dane cook

i didnt have work today

therapy was funny

i went swimming

im happy =]

I smiled because I get to spend the 4th of July with him :] Wooottt. And because I can hear the little birdies chirping outside by the pool. Haha.

Donna!! i smiled because of donna. =]

and because some hawt teacher told me to wait for him till the fall, when he starts school again. =] and he gave me a big ol hug.

I smiled because at 4 this morning when i got home from my boyfriend's place, he sent me a text saying "night my love. i'll dream of you" awwwww =]

i smiled because our relationship is so much better this time..=]

i smiled 'cause gma asked me "when do u have time to see your boyfriend, you dont sneak out do you" -grin- who meee?

i smiled cuz warmness of the soul by avenged sevenfold reminds me of him so much...perfect song by my favorite band...<3

=]
i talk about my bf too much haha

I smiled today because I had the day off. Needed to relax, but I'm bored out of my mind. I got a lot of reading done- that's always good.

I smiled today because he told me he couldnt wait to spend forever with me <3

I smiled because I guess after I went to sleep last night, he got on here and sent me a nice PM :]

Awe ^^^

i smiled 2day, cuz i thought of my cutie, and then i saw that my dog had a booger in his nose! XD lol

I smiled today because I am done with my early morning shifts for the week.

I smiled today because my singing lessons went well =]

I smiled today because the first thing he did when he woke up was text me to make sure I was okay. :]

I smiled today because it was a good day. And i'm thankful for the little things i have. And because (unlike a lot of people here) i'm not dependant on someone else to bring a smile to my face. I've got other things to live and smile for that don't include a boy. :)

I smiled 2day cuz its the end of the week ,and i dont have 2 go 2 Detroit 4 once! =DD

I smiled today because it's my dad's birthday, and I tied ribbons to the back of his car just 'cause he gets so grumpy.

I smiled, cuz me and my friends were goofin off in the mall. lol omg we took some photos of us in a booth thing, and we were so loud lol. ppl kept starin at us. X]

I smiled today cuz me and my boyfriend spent all day together. And yeah, i mean all day (4th of july stuff).

We went to the parade, and we went out to eat, and then we came back to watch some summer concert, (which pretty much sucked x3) and then i sat on his lap under blanket and watched the fireworks.

I dont think there was a minute when i wasnt smiling today ;D.

oh, actually there was, i saw one of my friends from school, and he works at the senior center, so i'm always teasing him about that and he's always teasing me about working at a video store. But it's always fun and stuff, so i said "oh em gee its miles!" and he was wearing an apron or something cuz he was working in the kitchen, and i said "workin at the senior center today i seeee" and he rolled his eyes and walked away >:O like, in a not-kidding- way. and my boyfriend went "wow, he turned into a jerk".

i agree. ha i just brought the mood down a little huh.

I smiled today because he kissed me in front of his friends =D. and because he held me the way i've ALWAYS wanted to be held =] and we watched the fireworks.

i smiled because i thought of the most romantic thing ever while i was at work. i was thinking about me and my bf. haha. and he says "we're not gonna be able to see the fireworks" and i say "thats ok, i see them each time i kiss you!". i know. sweet, right? if only i could use it. haha. =] that made me smile a long time. =] me and my imagination.

i smiled because i got off work 20 min early today =]

I smiled today because I stayed up all night with my boyfriend, just for the heck of it.

I smiled today because I keep thinking about what he said last night.

I smiled today because I know that he really cares about me, and I know he'll always be my best friend, and he'll always be there for me.

I smiled today because I was walking by myself and I tripped on the sidewalk and almost fell. I figured I must've looked kind of funny.

I smiled because I hung out with my three best girly friends :]

I smiled today because i talked to my dork of a best friend and she, as always, made me laugh :D

I smiled because im gettig ready to go see my lovely boyfriend..just when i was about to give up waiting for him to text me and to go to sleep [since it IS 2:23 am here]. but then, BAM. message =]

I smiled because he held me and refused to let me go. lol. it was so funny. =] abd when i finally got free he grabbed me up again. hahaha

I smiled because my baby brother woke me up once again :]

I smiled today because my toe nails are purple and pretty right now.

I smiled because I just have been in a good mood all day. Well almost all day :O

I smiled today because I spoiled my puppy with new treats again. What a baby.

I smiled today because i realized this morning at 4 right before i went to bed that i left my necklace on my bf's table [took it off for some reason?]. so now i have an excuse to go over there again...not that i need one =p

and i smiled because i had an amusing dream.

I smiled today because we started painting my room. (We're renovating!!!)

I smiled because I have been texting my bestest friend all morning. Haha. And because my two year old brother, after I said I'm tired goes I'm tired too :D