I'm an Awful Person...?

Here's the gist of my past few days: Tuesday night i think i got pregnant, not sure. I am not in a relationship with the guy. Several hrs later, my ex and me talked for the first time in a yr and a half. and apparently he asked me out and i said yes, but i have no recollection of this [i was not under the influence. i just plain dont remember EVER saying yes. lol] so we ended up talking til like 6 am and then we woke up at 7:30 to go to beakfast together. and he ended up kissing me =|

And now he's expecting me to be all like i was with the "i love you"s and wanting to see him. and its like 1] ive matured a LOT since them. 2] this guy hasnt talked to me in 1.5 years, he broke my heart, and he expects me to be ok with this? 3] i might be pregnant for goodness sakes. lol

should i feel indecent? and what should i do...? im lost. utterly confused.

all ive ever wished for was attention from guys. but right now i dont need this. at all. lol.

but at the same time, i dont wanna get rid of my ex because i still have slight feelings for him. just not as they once were long ago and far away.

Well, first I'd say find out for sure if you're pregnant. If you are, of course tell whoever is the father.

About the whole "ex asking you out;you saying yes" bit, you should talk to him about that. Tell him that you don't remember saying yes, and that you'd like to be friends, if you would. And I'm assuming that would be a good choice for you as of now, since you said you didn't want to get rid of him. And I would say tell him how you feel about the relationship you guys had previously. And explain how you feel about saying the "I love you's", and that he can't expect you to be like that, considering he broke your heart and what-not.

Hope this helps.
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U need 2 talk 2 him. he obviosly misses u and u do 2. and he cares. so tell him what u did BEFORE u were asked out. all u need 2 do is talk 2 him.

and tell him that u cant say "i love u" 2 him yet. he hurt u, and u have 2 belive he's trusting and loving b4 u say it.

~tia

You're absolutely right..and you see our make-up conversation was completely strange. he was all saying "i was just waiting for you to talk to me first, i've never gotten over you. and you taking the initiative to ask to be my friend on myspace showed me you cared" its like..uhm ive tried to be ur friend on myspace 2 times. lol. what about then?and what about when ive said hi to u when u come visit choir?

lol. gah.

and earlier he's all like "i love you more then is measurable" and its like. what? and he says he broke up with me cuz he thought i wanted to marry him. hahahaha which is funny because HE was always the one talking about us getting married. and i was always thinking "ok...this is weird" and even last night he was all like "i think we'd be a good married couple" lmao.

just felt like sharing that. because i cant tell my best friend. because she thinks im only talking to him to trick him into liking me again, and thats not true... x.x

ugh.
and just as im talking to u, the father of my possible child just texted me, and he only texts me when he wants to "hang out" and i am supposed to "hang out" with my "boyfriend" ahhhhhhhhh. i feel like a hoe =[

can i say hoe on here?
shrug. hoe.

Aww so have you found out if your prego yet? If you are then I think that you should keep the baby...because it can change your life very positively :)

Id never get rid of my baby, if im having one.