wot do i do

If you can't talk with people you know then try talking to people you don't. It sure sounds like you have an eating disorder, are you sure you aren't just in denial? Punishing yourself is a form of self harm and there are plenty of people here and elsewhere you can talk to about that. You could try talking to a councillor or if ya just want to let it all out you can message me through my profile.
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Incognito

I'm sorry you feel this way, if you ever want to talk to someone I'm here! i know that we dont know each other but I'll do anything to help!

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