does it annoy you

i have to pretend all the time around mom and my friends it's gotten to the point where i dont care anymore that im pretending . it's almost natural now but when im alone i cry and cry and cry and i ask myself questions that sometimes have answers and sometimes dont..

~*AngelOfPain*~

Same here I hate pretending I wish I could let it all out but I can't cause then it would ruin everyone's life.

I hate having to pretend, when I first started having to pretend that everything was fine I didnt really mind it but now I cant stand it and I just dont have the energy anymore to put on this mask everyday but I do because I have to so know one will see the real me but Im starting to slip and its getting harder to hide, I just wish I could let the real me out but no one can ever know that this is me...

Yea same here Charlotte.

I hate having too pretend... like AngelOfPain said it's become almost natural though. Those drama lessons helped me... nobody i know sees through it, the only person who can really tell whether i'm pretending or not is my best mate.. everybody else believes what they see...

meep ramlbing now,
bye
xx, PorteR

I pretend but sometimes I don't mind 'cause at least that way people are happy, I don't know it just confuses me :'( x

hey PorteR

i love pretending because i hate the real part of me so i love being someone i am not

When I am angry or sad... everyone knows about it (I don't like pretending that everything is ok when it's not).

I have gotten so used to the fake I appear to be in front of most people, that it's hard not to pretend. But yes it drives me crazy to have to pretend for the well-being of myself, and occasionally others. Like when I'm down and out, everyone may as well think that I couldn't be better though that is absoloutely not true. Sometimes I'm just not sure how to express my emotions without hurting someone else's feelings and such. Therefor, I'm not always sure what to do/say.

Always,
Manda

amanda wats up your ass

her head is so far up her ass all she can think about is herself and how we are all not afriad to admit we pretend to be happy ppl somtimes so we dont hurt other ppls feelings unlike her hiding everything inside im assuming like come on not everyone just comes into a discussion board about sadnees and depression, when really they arnt depressed or sad or willing to help the depressed, i bet if she would just losen up a bit she would have somthing to say along the lines of this topic? am i wrong?

~*AngelOfPain*~
P.S sorry about the head up the ass thing it was mean and im sorry ...

yes, and i hate pretending!!!!!! im tired of pretending.

I told my parents about year ago all the truth about me as a person and my lifestyle choices and habits. I also told them that this is me, and that I wasn't willing to, intending to or going to change for anyone...I told them my reasons for letting them in on my home truths...that I was sick and tired of the amount of wasted energy I would in creating and inventing this fake/pretend life for them every Saturday night over dinner, I told them it exhausted me. It stopped alot of the arguing, it stopped them trying to change me cause I think for the first time ever I was 100% honest and open with them, and I didn't let my emotions take hold...

pretending is like a second life pretty much.