...help...

My fathger dis owned me in 06, after i was kicked out of home(my rents are divorced) he abused me all the time when no one was around. i dont no how to forget him, he doesnt no why i dont call him although i told him and i mean he disowned me...i really need help...i became an alcholic at 13 and i do drugs to ease the pain..but it only makes matters worse, my friends judge me on what happened, so its difficult there is really no one that cares for me, my dad told me i dont deserve to live and enjoy life...what do i do

Stop listening to what everyone else is saying. Your dad may never acknowledge what transpired in your home, all you can do is tell him what he did and how it made you feel. Drinking and drugs won't help, but you already know this, cut it out of your life and do something positive. Now that you don't have to live in an abusive environment, be the best you, you can be and if you need it seek counseling.

Stop listening to them find your own path
and you'll make friends with different people if you just set yourself onto a different path
a good path

I am so sorry for you, but I am sure that you will overcome this.

Thanks for all that, i have read everything and have taken it on board, just knowing that there are people who care helps alot.
thanks