What happens when you're scared?

Okay... Here's the story

My boyfriend and I have been going out for a year and six months. He was a senior and I was a freshman when we started going out. Things have been great between us. (nothing perfect because we HAVE had some major fights, but we've worked through them all)
He has proved to be there for me through think and thin. and he has dealt with all of my problems..
you see I have never known my father, he abused me when i was younger and my mom never wanted me to go up in that enviorment so she never allowed me to see him. (which never made a difference because he never wanted to see me)..
My mom is an alcholic and has cancer..(and I stood by her through everything) I don't live with her, she chose a guy over me.. So I live with my aunts... But as you can probably guess i have MAJOR TRUST ISSUES!

My boyfriend has been wonderful! He does anything I ask. (Everyone thinks that he's perfect) And i believe that he is..
But because of my trust issues I am un able to do anything with him... He doesn't pressure me at all.. But I feel bad. He's 19, and I am 17.
Even though he say's he'll wait until i'm ready i'm still kinda scared that he wont..

Any advice?

Why the heck would you feel bad about that? He doesn't appear to be doing anything to make you feel that way, and even if he was, who cares?

You do what you want to when you're ready. Don't put yourself in a position to have regrets. If he leaves you over THAT, after a year and a half, then clearly he wasn't worth your time in the first place. Honestly, I can't believe this is actually a problem.

Yea, you're right.
I'm just scared that if we do do something then he's going to get what he wanted and leave..

I know that sounds ridiculous because we've been going out for so long. But I always have doubts.

Then don't do it, if you're scared. It's not that big a deal.

My ex knew I had trust issues, I was hurt by my first bf a few years ago and my last ex was the first I felt extremely comfortable with, and I was afraid to do anything with him and he said he understood that but I let my fear take more control and shut him out a lot, and blamed things on other things in my life. Now it's akward speaking to him. I'd suggest, if you want to listen, don't to anything else youa re well more than sure and talk to him about your fear as often as you can until you actually feel better.

I'll try it!!

and thanks for taking the time to help me :)

There is always gonna be that doubt but it will be ok...I've been dating billy for a yr and 9 mts. and we bot r still waiting.it's not very common that u can find someone that will wait for you.don't let this one go.just get though it 1 day at a time.

Hunny...you have a great guy there! He says he will wait for you and I really think he will...then again I dont know the guy...but he sounds great. I say take it one day at a time. P.s. i'm really about your family...thats awful...but anyways I say that if doesnt wait for you..then that is his problem and he lost a great girl.

Hunny...you have a great guy there! He says he will wait for you and I really think he will...then again I dont know the guy...but he sounds great. I say take it one day at a time. P.s. i'm really about your family...thats awful...but anyways I say that if doesnt wait for you..then that is his problem and he lost a great girl.

Thank you, and you're right he is a great guy!!

and it's not you fault about my family,
But i have realized that everything makes me stronger, and helps me get throught harder herdles in life..

thanks again.