Love/Hate Relationship!

Soo, I dated a guy for about 2yrs, I fell completely in love with him, its scary how much I still love him. But anyways, he completely just screwed me up, he lied to me for those entire 2 years. He said that he loved me and stuff and I knew he meant it, but even though he loved me, it wasnt enough. He had never fully let me into his life because of our age difference, which is quite big. But why should that matter when it comes to love right? He just dragged my broken heart along for 2 whole years of just lying to me and then one day he just says "We can never be together untill you're 18" which is in a couple months. So I've been trying to get over him, it has been a year and I still love him. I can't get him out of my system, he's just everywhere. All the time I just think about him. I compare him to all the guys I date, I don't let anybody get close to me anymore because I'm so scared that they'll hurt me like he did. In the year that I've been trying to get over him I had so many re-bound boys; grande total of 16. I feel like because of him, I've lost the ability to love and I hate him for that. I hate that I can't just like somebody for who they are, and not worry about how they're going to hurt me next. I need to get him out of my life. But I just don't know how, sometimes I really just miss him so much I can't take it. Other times I get so angry with him that I delete him off MSN and his phone number, but I remember these... so a couple days later I'll just add it again. I hate him for everything he's done to me, but I love him for who he is.

I just needed to get that out of my system.

You're young sweetheart. I've been there and although it feels bad now, trust me, in fifty years when your married with kids, grandkids, two dogs and a budgie, you won't even remember his name. I can promise you that.

No Queen of Hearts;;

Look here babe. Age really dosen't matter if your in love. I know this may be hard to hear, but if he truly loved you he wouldn't have left you until your eighteen. It's always hard being tricked into letting someone in, and then they just tear you aparty when they leave. But you have to be strong about it.Pick youself up, look in the mirror, and say 'I'm better than this'. Who are you to let someone control who you let in or out of your life. Because that's what your letting him do. You think it's yourself, but trust me it's not. You just have to have a night to yourserlf and analyze him. Is he really worth the tears? Does he mean that much to you, that your illing to let him walk all over you, so you can be with him?

Now analyze yourself;;

My opinion;;
It's up to you what happens. But don't wait for someone that 'Loves' you, when he couldn't stay with you through all your up's and down's. Don't be fooled. Love is blind hunny. Make sure you can see.

I have been with people with mental health issues, and they find it hard to stay and love someone over a period of time, they detach then reattach constantly. Im not saying this guy you are on about has mental health issues, but maybe there is a deeper reason behind it. Be open minded.