Depression is killing my love.....

It seems as though my life is falling apart in many ways. I have been dealing with depression for 8 years now, but I guess I have been doing a really good job at hiding it, because my husband seems to believe that this is all happening now, as though its all fresh. I can not seem to hide my pain anymore, as it seems the harder I try to put up a frount, the harder it is to deal. I am so lost right now, Im afraid I may never find what I am looking for ( a chance to feel real, alive....like ME!!!!) I just want to scream, and trying to explain my pain to someone who has never felt the inner pain, mysterious termoil, is near impossible. I find myself wishing he would just leave me alone. He , and everyone else around drives me insaine....over nothing. I am not sure what the point of my post is, I just felt the need to vent. I am sorry if this does not make any sence.....as I am currently unable to focus on caring about something for a long period of time. I think it would be nice if anyone else wants to vent about your feeling.....well, sorry everyone, I didn't mean to rant for so long

Its ok... i know when i rant and rave.. all i want is someone to just listen...

and i know wher ur coming from...

i know what if feels like to not be able to explain nor get anything out their..

and it makes sence to me...

you need to get away.. from everything.. for like.. a weekend or something... just get away.. turn off the phone.. and just go..

it does help.. .and i'm allways here for you if you need some one to vent, or rant at.. lol

bye.
-Maeve

It does make sense...ummm u need to get some help..im not trin to be rude or anythin...but bein depressed is just gonna make u feel like killin ur self...so yea you should not b close to the people who drive u crazy...go to church god has ur back...go pray to god...he'll help you but you gotta go lookin for god...or pray at ur house and tell god how u really feel trust me god does listen to us..

All my depression made me sufffer in love like I can't love no one becuz of all I had and yet itf.......n hurt like hell