Depressed as hell

I took my girl out to a movie a few weeks ago and she seemed really upset about something all day. I asked her what was wrong as we left the theater and she told me that we were going to have a baby and she freaked out and had an abortion...

it was horrible... I haven't cried in public since I was in kindergarten, but when she told me... it was like a knife to my ribcage... I broke down in tears right in the parkinglot and had a bad asthma attack... and to top this joyous shit-cake off, she said that she needed a break from things and flew out to NY with our 4y/o daughter and hasn't spoken to me since (wont answer phone calls, emails, or anything)

and now, all i can bring myself to do is lay in bed all day, staring at the ceiling and occasionally using my laptop...

I am sorry you have found yourself in this position, I can only imagine how horrible it must be. The 2 of you have a child together though and for her to just take off, take her and not talk, write or answer emails is just wrong. Maybe she feels bad or is ashamed of the choice she made and not including you, but running away and not facing it is not going to make that go away. I wish I could give you some easy answers to turn it around, but that ball is in her court, hopefully she comes to her senses.

Just keep trying to talk to her