What happened to you today [Fresh#2]

Zeenat is out of town, and JayJ hasn't been on in a while, so i am making a new post for them while they are gone:

Post what happened to you today;your emotions, activities you've done. Don't forget to come back and check for replys or advice from either JayJ or myself. If it's more of a personal thing we urge you to PM us. Thank you all for taking your time to write to us, we appreciate it alot.

**I've started a new thing: Two in One, or Three in One, etc. Just incase im in a rush;**

luv, Zeenat&&JayJ =]<3

Today i went to bed at 4:30 this morning, in the midst of texting my dear sweet logan. whoops. lol.then i woke up at 11:45ish because there was an earthquake. then i went back to sleep when it ended. and woke up again at 2 when my alarm went off. then i went to therapy, and then to carls jr. then i came home. and just chilled out...and now that its 12:21am, its officially been logan's bday for 21 minutes. lol. as soon as it hit midnight he texted me saying "happy birthday to me" lol what a loser =]

and here i am, bored. waiting to get tired..=p

I woke up in the middle of the night... and heard this beeping sound... i couldnt figure out what it was.... i tried to go back to sleep but couldnt...
i had an anxiety attack in the middle of the night... so i took a pill and went to bed... woke up and went to work... still at work... waiting to get out... 3 more hours.... ugghhh!!

Work has been good, tiring a bit but worth it. Me and Alex are great and I am really happy with how that is working out.
I have a whole bunch of parties coming up which is cool coz I get to dress up. One is a pirate party and I got a sexy wench costume and the other is an occupation party and I am gonna be a moulin rouge girl. HEHE.
I never get to get all dressed up and girly and sexy so these are my chances to get all dolled up!!!
I have presents to get though and some ppl are so hard to buy for! Its also my brothers bday soon as well!!!

Anyway I gtg I got new bookshelves and have no idea where to put them!!!!

eeee love yall xxx

I woke up at 7, my freakin insomnia is starting up again. but i haven't done much just reading, and posting new poems. Shanik

I woke up at 6 and came to work at the school. Watched my assigned kids perform their drama plays, drank some coffee. Got off work and went to my keyboarding summer class and now im waiting for it to be over.

Well lets see, i woke up and learned my best friend was moving to Louisiana. And he never told me about the move until today, so i cried for HOURS on end. And i cant stop wondering why he didn't tell me.Everyone else knew, BUT me. And more rumors are flying around at this thing i go to, and im upset about it, bcuz i do nothing to make these rumors start. [i say its insecurity,with the other girls] and now im waiting for some peopel to come get me, so i can go out tonight.

Yesterday...oh geez. you guys are going to kill me. yesterday was my ex's bday, and i wished him a happy birthday at midnight, just as i always do. then at 2am this morning [we both are insomniatic lol] i texted him asking how his bday went. well, then he went on the pc and we imed and all of a sudden we are going out again. but its a longish distant relationship now since he lives in hollywood which is like an hr away. but im with him..and thats....awesome. lol. =] im seeing him next wednesday i think . -woot-

but today all ive done was wake up 23 minutes ago. lol i have singing lessons in 52 minutes. then after that i doubt im doing anything..

edit:
well, i went to singing lessons and i did surprisingly well, seeing as how i have had a very hard time breathing the past few days. we just found out i have bronchitus [sp?] so that sucks =[ it hurts a lot to breathe. meh. anyway, so i got home and then me and gma went to home depot, target, and jcpennys, looking for a curtain rod. lol. woo?
and now im home. and bored out of my mind..and its only 9pm =[

Today was an awful day.I have just had an argument with my brother and my bird who is my lovely friend is a lil bit sick I wish her to be okay.

Woot.!

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAY!

we know how we all have been but how are you Zeenat??

xx

Ive been good. ive been sick the past week and a half though. im finally going to the doctor today. we're thinking bronchitis or even pnemonia [sp?] or something awful. im hoping its just a really really sucky cold, because how could i even catch pnemonia? its freaking hot out...but my gma keeps the house so cold, and when i go to dads they freeze me too. thats why i think. but maybe.. meh i find out in 28 minutes...

getting my hair bleached on the 13th finally =D. the 7th im hopefully going to see the plain white t's. the 14th im seeing aces high. the 24 and 25th i get to stay at my dads house alone =D while theyre in vegas. and logan might come stay w/ me one of those days, maybe....and then school starts on the 27th, NOT the 28th =[ which is the day ryan died 1 yr ago. meh.

well, thats that.
gotta leave for the dr now, ciao <3

edit:
its viral bronchitis. lol.

anyway, so today i woke up, went to the dr, got some lunch, went to therapy, texted logan, and now im home. poor logan is saying he doesnt want to sleep anymore because he always dreams hes dying =[ i feel bad for him. -sigh-

I woke up this morning and got ready for work and then I called my brother so he could pick me up...and he doesnt answer!! i was so mad!!
he had made me cry yesterday... and again this morning... i am not functioning correctly today...
i cant do things... and my stomach hurts because i am so mad at my brother!
I hate this!

Today i woke up to go to yet another dr. this time was a dermatologist though. i have very little acne, but my gma thinks i should have NONE. lol. so we went. and got some stuff for it. and i showed here these brown spots on my stomach and apparently..lol...my stomach has chronic dry skin. lmao. she told me that if i put selsin blue [the dandruff shampoo] on my spots everyday for 20 minutes for 2 weeks and moisturize, they'll go away. lmao. -rolls eyes-

so after the dermatologist, i went to work. it was hell. my 1st day back since saturday when i had to leave early because i couldnt breathe. it sucked so bad.

well, i got off and came home. and here i am w/ selsin blue on my stomach. lmao. its tingly =p

i would be w/ logan right now if he hadnt cancelled on me a few days ago =[ but oh well...i'll hopefully see him the 24th or 25th when im at dads and he comes and sleeps over [unless he gets busy then too....]

tomorrow im going w/ my best friend to see the plain white t's in concert. should be fun. =]

thats about it..

Yeah Zeenat I hope ur thingie works and U get all ur piccies back!!!

best of luck

wastedfakesmiles I have seen plain white Ts before live and they rock so I hope u enjoy them to! I met the singer and got a hug! It was awesome. Of course I thought about a foto.
AFTER...they left. GGRRRR :l

I am well. Alex and me are SO awesome, work is great, its nearly the wkend and I cannot wait to PARTY!!!!

life is NICE ^_^
hope everyone else is going well as well :)
xx

I went to a BSB concert last night. :) It's still too early for anything to happen today. I have to go to work soon.

Didnt get to sleep till 4 then woke up at 8.30, then i did some study and then at 10.30 went to personal training and worked out, then i came back home to do some more study but i got sidetracked by this lol....
today is a good day, feeling good, better than usual :)
hope u guys are all good too!!
xxx

I know. i do live @ the doctors. but everything always goes wrong at the same time. i'll be well for months and months. then BAM everything hits me at once. haha. anyway, logan isnt new....i dated him 4 and a half [yes a half] times back when i was a sophmore and him a senior. our half time ended in a huge blow up, and he broke my heart essentially. and we didnt talk for a year and a half...a few days before our first conversation, i asked to be his friend on myspace beacuse truth is ive never gotten over him. serious, i love that man so much...yes, i had crushes. but hes so much better..lol. =/ anyway, we started talking june 18th. we were both up because we're both insomniatic and we talked til 5am.then he asked me on a date to go to breakfast, and i said yes just because..so both of us getting a grand total of like..4 hrs sleep..lol...went to breakfast. and after he kissed me and instantly everything basically went back to how it was. from there he got kicked out of his house and he moved into a hotel like..2 minutes driving distance from my house. and i snuck out 4-5 days a week during the 3 weeks of our 5 and a halfth time. then he broke up w/ me...he didnt tell me why. but i know why, its not me. that day he also lost his job. and having no HOME or JOB is stressful..i dont blame him. anyway, we stayed friends and agreed to still hang out. and then he moved to hollywood a few weeks ago, which is like an hr and a half from my house. =[ and then on his bday we were talking and he said that i had to admit it was good we were just friends because we never get to see each other and i said that i didn't have to see him everyday to be in a happy relationship. and he said we could be together..and yeah. thing is, i dont think he remembers saying we could be together...hes not acting normal. but maybe it's just because we are apart. but it feels like we're still just friend, so last night i sent him a text saying "would it be awkward if i said i miss you a lot?" he said it wasnt awkward, so that was a good sign. i dont really understand him right now..i know hes under stress but STILL. lol. sometimes he will put <3's and stuff, and other times its like...meh dont talk to me. =/ tomorrow will be a month since we seen each other. and 2 days from now will be when he broke up w/ me last. lol. yeah..complicated...

anyway, yesterday i went to see the plain white t's they were amazing. then after me and my best friend amy ran into one of my other best friends, jassy, whom was w/ her gf. we hung out w/ them for like an hr but its so awkward because they kept making out and its like..ok that'd still be weird even if it was a guy and a girl x.x, but no..2 girls making out brings a lot of attention x.x lol. and then me and amy left them and went home. and she stayed at my house and took one of my extra pregnancy tests from when i had my scare last month, and thankfully she isnt either...and then she went to sleep at 2. but since i cant sleep ever, i was up texting logan til like..4. and then i fell asleep. then amy wont me up at 8:45 =[ and then we chilled til she left at 10:30. then i went back to sleep til 1 when i had to get up to get ready to take senior pictures. BLECH. that sucked. and then i went to best buy and got a new camera. and then i came home and here i am.

=]

I apologize for the novel of a post. lol =|

Well, most of the past 24 hours hasnt been good..up til a few minutes ago =]

last night i put a new pic up on myspace and tons of ppl were calling me ugly and stuff and that hurt my feelings. and then this morning i was still down about that..er i guess i should say this afternoon since i didnt wake up til 1:45. lol. so then today ive just been really down because its been a month since ive seen logan. and he was online earlier but i wanted him to talk to me first, so i waited, and he ended up signing off. and i was disappointed so i went into my gma's room to talk to her and we just chatted for like an hr and a half and i came back and he'd sent me an IM that i cant repeat on here. lol. but then he had signed off, so i sent him a text saying thanks for the giggle, and then we started talking and i said i was bored and he said i should visit him right now. god i wish i could, but i cant..=[ but then he sent me a text saying "i love you" and then i was happy again because its been 10 days since he said that, and im thinking maybe..just maybe..he actually meant it when he asked me out on his bday now..maybe...i hope so..lol =]

and now we're still texting =]

edit:
and now im super happy because hes making a special trip all the way here because he misses me and wants to see me =]

Rest of my night...
well i just got back from the worst night ever. not because of logan..but because of..well..i'll let u read what i posted on myspace..

so i was about to sneak out when i thought i should grab a coat. and so i came up when gma knocks on my door. i jump in bed and she asks me what was the noise she heard? and i said i dunno. and she left. and then she came back a couple minutes later w/ my shoes and purse that i put on the bench by where i was leaving. and asks what they are..i say they're from earlier she rips off my covers and asks "where are you going" [she sees im wearing clothes rather then pjs. so i tell her. we get into a huge fight and i leave....big mistake. next thing i know im driving around and i go over to logan's friends house and im with them when my dad keeps calling and calling and then my phone died, but we put my sim card into logans phone. and then i text dad saying im fine, i just need some time to clear my head. he calls me and cusses me out and says i need to get home in 10 minutes. so i leave logan's friends house and come home.
and

the rest i'd rather not say.

but moral of the story is...what you think will be the best night of your life because you're going to see the one person who you've missed more then anything in this world..but in reality it ends up sucking.
but i did get to see him and that was nice =]
but that was the only nice part.

and now my gma is taking away my car i think. and probably grounding me..i find out my punishment tomorrow.

i think i've already been punished enough...but..im sorry...=[
what a bad night.

=[

all i wanted to do was see him.

all i wanted was to see the one i cant stop thinking about.

and this is what it got me
=[

EDIT:
however, i'd like to add that Logan called me, in front of his friends, his girlfriend. =] so that means we are, indeed, together..and i love that. hearing that made it all worth wild. =]

What happened today....

Well, I finally realized how it feels to be in a relationship with someone for only a couple of weeks and them suddenly break up with you. Maybe this will help me to stop spazzing in relationships.

He wouldn't even talk to me. He broke up with me by texting my best friend, and then he was telling people I was mad at hime for breaking up with me. He didn't even attempt to talk to me! He would just look at me and hurry away. The last time he did that today, I just stared at him and shook my head. He told my friend that he broke up with me, he's not talking to me.

But whatever. I have decided I'm not going to let him bother me. Everyone was right. I can do better than him.

Eh since i last posted, it hasnt been so great.

i got my car back..i dunno if i said that before...i dont really remember when i last posted...=/

me and logan are going to break up tomorrow..im almost sure of it. i asked him if he was mad @ me and he said we needed to talk tomorrow, and we all know what "we need to talk" means..=/ so im...enjoying? my last night as a taken woman. though im not ENJOYING it at alll =[. but i was talking to logan former best friend from high school, whom i had a crush on, and he was really really nice to me. i'd date him if he were interested...but i dont want o rush right now. im gong to be heartbroken tomorrow im almost sure of it. i'll need mending time...i wish logan would stop hurting me. my unconditional love isnt enough for him =[

Thanks. just got home from an 8.5 hour day at work...BLECH. but it wasnt that bad. my best friend at work was there with me all day, so we talked and stuff while everyone else talked crap about us as always. -rolls eyes-

still no word from Logan. i'm beginning to accept he'll be breaking up with me almost surely. yeah..it'll suck. but i'd rather be single then continue to feel this way. just..neglected. so yeah.. but who knows. maybe it'll be an apology. guess i'll have to wait and see. for now im gonna just lay around and enjoy being home tonight and all day tomorrow =]

and then tuesday will be a BUSY day. have orientation for school in the morning. then going to one of my besties houses after. then at 3 i have therapy. then at 6 i have work. BUSY BUSY. lol

im looking forward to everyone seeing my lovely blonde hair =D

Me and logan are over. and i am surprisingly happy about it. =] im glad the wait is over to be broken up w/. now i'll start my senior year drop dead sexy and single. really, i am SO attractive now that i did my hair. i cant get over it =]

its gonna be a good year =]

tomorrow i have orientation..er..today. im not gonna sleep beforehand. i dont feel like it. lol. so 5.5 hrs til i start getting ready lol =]

Yup, i really am fine =]. now me and eric are planning a time when we meet..=| dangers of meeting someone you dont know...i know i know. im scared just as i should be. but i believe he is who he says he is....but yeah. i got 45 minutes of sleep before i had to wake up for orientation. lol. me and eric talked 7 hrs straight..lol. =]

orientation was fine, no one was there really to see my sexy hair though. and ya, ill post a pic soon. =].

I fell asleep this morning to a lovely phone call with my new boyfriend..and woke up to a lovely textmessage from him :] Then i took a shower, talked to Patrick, then worked out a bit, and now i'm here :]

All is well here. me and eric have been talking 7 or more hours a day since we first started talking 3 days ago..its lovely =] we talked til 6am this morning..lol. we both never sleep..thats a plus =p

so yesterday i went over to my dads house to find out what i need to do while they are gone. it'll be really, REALLY simple. lol. mostly i'll be just laying around in bed/couch watching tv on their big screen tvs and playing video games =D and enjoying the life i'll have when i move out someday. lol. =D im so excited.

then today i woke up at 1pm. got dressed and went to pick out my senior picture for the yearbook... yeehaw =| but my pix turned out really good, and grandma is glad that i didnt bleach my hair til after [shes the ONLY person that has seen my hair that doesnt like it.] and when i woke up i sent Eric a cute little text message, but he didnt reply =[ maybe hes asleep or at work or something..i dunno. not gonna worry about it..lol maybe hes just sick of talking to me =p

yeah, and nowim gonna go take a shower and just attempt to wake up because im SO tired for no reason. lol

Well, today was fun. somewhat..lol

Talked to eric only until 1:30 in the morning. watched Viva LaBam until 3:30. went to sleep and woke up 2pm. then i went to target with my grandma and got some stuff and lunch. then came home and talked to Eric until i went left for work at 5:10. then worked my BUTT OFF because it was SOOOO messy because this one girl is so lazy. its awful. we're all gonna complain to the store manager when he gets back from vacation, because our section manager isnt someone who has bothered to fix the problem aka talk to her or fire her.
so i got off at 9:40..10 minutes AFTER i promised Eric i'd be home to talk to him =p. but then i got to gmas at 9:50, packed my backpack, and came over here to my dads because they are leaving n a few hours for a 3 day vacation, and i get to be here ALONE that long to watch the dog/fish. =D
so yeah. then ive been sitting here taking to eric until like 30 min ago, but he called me for a minute [just that long because we're both afraid of talking on the phone [[me more so lol]] ] to say goodnight. =] he's got a cute voice =p. i'm hopefully gonna meet him next weekend...[though im nervous about it. im excited]

the only thing i havent been happy about these 5 days ive known him, is that every night ive had a nightmare...=[ i never have nightmares like this. its usually a couple times a YEAR. im always being chased and theyre trying to kill me. Eric feels bad because he thinks its because of him, but it doesnt make sense. im not worried he'll kill me or anything...-sigh- idk. i hope tonight i dont have one though.

but im about to find out cuz i think ima hit the hay.

<33

Nothing has happened today... but yesterday I found out I have mono and my boyfriend might have it as well. His test resaults won't come back until tomorrow, so yeah.

No school for me for 4-6 weeks.

I'm under quarentine! It sucks really bad. ><

Hopefully I'll get over my writer's block so I won't be bored off my arse for this month and a half.

Not much same sht different day

Today I saw my whole entire family and they are amazing:)

Yeah, sorry, i've been busy talking to eric =p

anyway, i started school wednesday. its ok i guess, except i dont know anyone in my psychology class, and that kinda sucks. but oh well =] and everyone loves me as a blonde. my choir director was hitting on me -puke- i told eric, and hes gonna come here and beat him up. lmao.

eric and i are meeting in 1 day 13 hr 32 minutes. =| thats how ive been for a week now. counting down...im so nervous, but excited..he says he gonna ask me out sso i'll leave single and return as a member of the couple Eric and Erika. lol. we have like..the same name...its weird.

so what we're doing is i'm driving for 2 hrs or so to get to his place, and then we're going to get some movies or something and just chill at his house and watch them. and then im sleeping over there because thats one hell of a drive to only be there a couple hours..lol. and then monday we're either gonna chill around his house some more or go to the movies. oh, and at some point we're going to best buy..lol. yeah...

i guess for now i just need to relax cuz tomorrow i work 8.5 hrs and then im gone the rest of the weekend.
=]

Lucky, no school for you for a year. (:

The other day I found out that my grandpa had a tumor on his lung(s). They couldn't really do anything about it, since he's so old anything they tried could kill him.

Sooo.... today as I'm eating a peanut butter cookie and texting my boyfriend, my mom comes up and goes, "I have some bad news."

I almost drop my cookie. I stop mid chew and go, "What?"

She continues to tell me that the tumor is in fact cancer and it is a fast-growing cancer. So yeah.

And I haven't seen my grandparents in months. It's not that I don't want to or anything.. It just hurts me to see them like that. You know.. old and dying.

And now that my grandpa is actually dying, I can't even see him since I have mono. ):

Sorry, I'm just really upset/depressed and needed to vent somewhere. ):

Well, last night i got back from meeting Eric. what a relief it was to see him the first time and see that he was who he claimed to be, and not some fat old pervert =].

so sunday we went to get some movies and such, and he made fun of my driving, so i made him drive my car the rest of the time. lol. and so we watched SEVEN movies together..6 sunday, 1 monday. lol.

we went to sleep at 5:00am. and then we woke up at 8:30, then slept. then 9:30ish. then slept. and that kept happening. we'd sleep some wake up and then sleep more. lol. finally at 2:45 we stopped going back to sleep and watched the last movie. and the i called out from work =p and then at 6 i left =[

i miss him already.
and he didnt ask me out..but thats ok. he said he wanted to but was nervous i'd say no. lol. even though i told him i'd say yes. lol. oh well. hopefully ima go back down there in 2 weeks. he's hoping he'll buy a car soon so he can come up here soon. lol. =]

Lol yeah we kissed. =] and we cuddled like the entire time, he's comfy =p i really like him and he says he likes me too..its great. except now shes got a cold of some sort, and i have like...a stomach problem. lol. we bring each other sickness =p yeah, hes looking for a car right now, hes hoping to get one soon but for now i'm fine going up to see him =] hopefully im going up not this weekend but the one after that because its another 3 day weekend..i dunno though.

and before we met he invited me to go to this ball with him. because hes in the marines, and they are having one i guess. so i dunno when that is..i think in November..so yeah, if he still wants to go i'd be with him then. and he said he wanted to go to my prom and home coming w/ me =p so i'll be seeing him then too i guess. and he says he's gonna come up here like..all the time..once he gets a new car because his family has bad luck w/ cars. none of their cars work..lol.

yeah, we're not talking right this second which is a shocker, but only because he said he was sleepy so i made him go take a nap =p

and i went to the dr again today. still have a lung infection. and nowi g2 get my galbladder [spelling?] checked cuz i might have galstones! ahhhh lol

Thanks, I might hit you up on that offer sometime.

Well.. the past two days were very interesting... Yesterday the school called and come to find out, the doctor didn't set up the homebound like she said she would.

They said that if I missed today that I wouldn't get my credits for this semester (and last year I lost all my credits, but gained one back by working my butt off in summer school. I was sick a lot last year too and missed a lot of days through out the year.)

So this morning, my mom went down to the school and talked to them and I'm not enrolled there anymore. I'm going to do online classes instead.

The schools plan was for me to catch up and do online classes, then come back to the school, but I refuse to go back, so I'm going to do the online classes for awhile and then go get my GED.

I found out last night that at 17 you can get into college, so that will probably be the plan for next year. But who knows.

But anyway... I went to the doctor today and they were trying to take my blood. Normally they have no problems with it, but this time they stuck me SEVEN TIMES.

Twice in my left arm, three times in my right arm, once in the top of my right hand (which hurts), and once in my right wrist (which hurts even worse).

When they were trying to take it out of my wrist, I started tearing up and screamed. The vain bust anyways and they took the needle out and I about fainted. (And I'm not one who is faint-hearted.) I've never fainted before. It was quite the experience. Lol.

Ouch!!
i haaaaaaaaaaaaate needlessss
sry 4 u :(

Well...lets see around 2:15 p.m. I checked my phone and I had 2 missed called, 2 voice mails, and 2 text. One of the text was from my friend and the other was from my boyfriend. The text from my friend said, so have you made out with Luke yet? and I was just like WHAT?? because I had just met the kid and we had been talking one day so everbody assumed there was something more going on. The two calls and voice mails were also from my friend they both said "Hey this is Ashley please call me back". I think she had something to do with this. The text from my boyfriend had said, I can't F****** believe you, were over. (Who breaks up through text anyways?) So you can probably guess my boyfriend suspected I was cheating on him and broke up with me today. Somebody (who apparently wanted us to break up and got their wish) started a rumor that me and this kid had "made out" after school...which is kind of funny because I didn't even SEE him after school but whatever. We had been dating for two months and one week so it's kind of a disapointment. The thing is is that we go to different schools so it can be hard at times...so I guess this is probably the best for both of us anyways. For the most part thats been the highlight of the day other than me sulking around and crying. :'(

So today my dear Eric asked me to his Marine Corp ball again. Nov 7,8,9...1 months before i turn 18. =]. i have to ask my gma..and that sucks. she wont say yes. and hes already paid for it cuz he had to...and god, i feel bad. but theres 2 months til then...maybe i can talk her into it...idk.

so, even though me and Eric aren't dating officially since he was too chicken to ask me out, he's basically my boyfriend. lol. because my exes are hitting on me now that im attractive..lol. and i dont like it because i feel bad, even though i only have interest in Eric. and Eric told me to tell them my boyfriend will kick their *butts* if they dont leave me alone. haha. my boyfriend, eh. =] and then he said today "how's my baby" hehe. my baby. =] thats meeeeee. see hes called my babe, baby, cutie, baby girl...but never with MY in front of it. lol. maybe i just overreact..i dunno.

oh and i talked to my mummy today ^.^ im seeing her wednesday =D and then she'll FINALLY see my blonde hair that has been done for almost a month now..and i can talk about Eric..hehe i cant wait =p