What have you been through?

I was just wondering, because i've had to have sex with someone in my close family since i was 3, and i think thats why i have such confusing emotions, i was wondering if anyone has ever felt the same, or knows why they feel the way they do?

I think sometimes it can help to know why we feel the way we do?

I cant say i know how tht feels.but my biological father walked out on me when i was 2. i was 5 when my mom met my step-dad. [whom i concidered my daddy] and until i was 13 he beat my mom, and on accasion me. But he died two years ago. And it was when we all started to hink he was doing very well. and he promised hed stop drinking. and he got n a car crash. he rolled down a hill, and he landed in mud, he was too drunk to pick his head up, and he suffocated.

ive also lost other family mameber, and have lost a lot of friends.

I'm sory about that you guys. I've never really gone through something that bad. Just my mom doesn't accept me for me, and if she knew i was bisexual she would kick me out(she told me so) my first g/f dumped me on Valentine's day, and my second g/f cheated on me three times. my dad is in jail again, and i just got dumped by a gut who i dated four times over the past year. but that's pretty much it. Shanik

I grew up in a dysfunctional family, watching bad things happen, having bad things happen and causing bad things to happen, good or bad it's all life and hopefully you use your past to make you stronger.

I'm sorry you've all been through these things.

I have been through things but I don't think this is the time for me to tell you - I think it's for me to listen to you and try to help if I can

:)

I've actually been asking myself that recently...

i think i am the way i am because i'm all alone...the only guy who was ever there for me and who ever hurt me so much made me the way i am now..he made me face everything i wasn't ready for. looking back on my past i realize that probably had a big effect...i grew up in a war, i was sexually abused, and i was almost killed both by me and someone else. there's other things im not ready to face yet that have happened but i could have lived my life in the hierarchy of illusion if it wasnt for him. I look around now and all i see is the truth...and just how much no one says it.

Mine are a mixture of reasons. My dads side of the family are very working class and open. My mums side of the family are very well to do and closed. Ive always been stuck between the two worlds, not quite fitting into either.

Another reason may be the fact i may be about to be diagnosed with Bipolar.

Who knows.

My father tourtered, raped, and brainwashed me. He murdered everything but this broken body I still dwell in....

Lets see here... in my life i have had a crush commit suicide and i just ignored his warning, i had two friends die recently in a accident was raped on one occassion molested twice had 7 friends pass and 10 relatives been put in the hospital for depression, cut myself as a whole room of people just watched....and did i mention im only 17......

I've been cheated on by three of my exes and cheated on one with three people. I've cut myself and tried to commit suicide by way of pills. I've stolen and gotten arrested. I've talked about my friends behind their backs as well as had friends talk about me behind myback. My father tried to brainwash me. My father was cheating on my mother with three women (not all at the same time) and I knew about each one and I was threatened about what would happen to me if I ever told my mother. My parents got divorced and my father got remarried and my mother told me I better not like his new wife. I love to make myself cry because I don't think I deserved to be happy. I am constantly lieing to myself and others. I've tried to sneak out of the house and I once ran away. I get stressed out really easily and I can't say "no" to people so that just stressed me out even more because I;m always having way more to do than I physically have time for. I got so mad at my father once I slapped him in his face. I've locked my mother out of the house (and then it started to rain)...lol...once and I've slapped her and bit her and tried to push her down the stairs and I almost locked her downthe basement once. I've helped my friend hide from the cops (although he did end up turning himself in three days later). I wasn't raped but I was touched innappropriately and was forced to kiss both male neighbors (one on each side of my house) more than once. I've defaced property. I've watched one of my exes try to committ suicide twice (in the same day). I've been hit with a telephoone (by the same ex). I've been propositioned by one of the little kids I babysit (he's only 11) more than once and he's even thrown himself on me more than once (but I can't say anything or I'd loose my job). One of my exes stole a lot of money out of my checking account multiple times. My cousin wrote my now b/f love letters trying to get him to break up with me (even though she is married) and when he didn't she threatened his mother and called the cops on him and her. She threatened my mother and myself and keyed my mother's car as well as had her husband take a bat to the car. I've had three people in my family die and I had to watch one of them die. I've drank while in a highschool (more than once). I've gotten drunk once and I drink (on rare occasion) with my now b/f.

There probibly are more, but I think my list is soo long as it is.

I was abused when i was 8 for 3 years.
my brother tried to kill me twice.
he went to prison for beating sum guy up for threatning to slash my throat at school.
i had a 1 year affair with a male nurse, until he got married!
walked out of my job because management did f*ck all about the health and safety, fell for a guy who ended up stealing money from me. got a sh!t job that payed a sh!t wage then i got seduced by my best friends husband!
had another affair with my gym instructor for 3 years he was with his lass for 4 of those years!
i started councling sessions and facing my past.
met a new lad who became my bf for nearly a year, i told him everything about myself, then i found out he cheated on me with a lass i knew and hated! took a year and a half to get over him, tried to kill myself once with pills, started slashing my wrists near the end of my last relationship and have been doing it ever since.
ive confronted some people but not others yet about what happened in my past, ive called social services as i was scared someone i knew was getting abused by the same person who abused me, ive filed a police report against it, my 2 best friends were raped and i couldnt do anything!
ive passed out a few times when drinking to my sorrows, ive watched people close to me die, ive wished people i know to die and ive wanted to kill them but its purly fantasy.
there are certain places i cant travel to for my own safety and i sometimes take too much medication to forget the world.my sister was in a car crash and my brother nearly died from being in one, my cousin died by the police hands and i fancy the drug dealer who lives up the street from me.

think thats about it.
hmm, yup.