It hurts

So I all of a sudden started thinking about my ex and it sucks, I tell myself I don't like him but my heart tells me I do. He leaves for school soon and I want to hang out with him one last time before he leaves.. but I know I can't. But I want to clear things up because I don't want him leaving hating me. But I'm hoping it works for the better and we begin to get along again.. But what should I do I just want to clean up w/e issues we have/had. Although I know we will NEVER hang out, until he comes back

Yes, life hurts. Always. There is no person lived in this planet did not feel pain.

Well. Think positively.

You will meet new people. A lot of new people you will like.

You will grow up. Before you see him again you have learnt a lesson or two about this world.

Life gives you lemons, make lemonade.

Well I won't meet new people because I still have a year of highschool left..

But the positive side is not driivng an hr to see him