Old love rekindled?

So there's a whole love story bullshit thing behind this going for 5 years...I finally said and decided it was over...the only thing is I was talking to an old online friend of mine who started reminding me of him..the old him...and the one I loved. I know he's in a way dead but latley i've been watching too many love movies..and idk i just kind of felt those feelings stir inside me a little bit. I dont really believe love can die, and I did love him. Or so I thought back then. I decided in the end I was in love with who I thought he was not who he was because he was so different in person then he was online...well by the time I actually talked to him face to face anyway. It was a screwed up relationship i'll admit but still...I'm a little scared it's going to start all over again and I'm finally learning to live alone...help?

No one can help you, if you don't want the relationship, don't get into it, it is a simple choice. Just because you feel a stir of feelings doesn't mean you have to go back to anyone.

You know i told myself the same thing. and looking back on it today i dont even know why i posted this...i dont think many people would understand it's not another dumb teenager whining...and i suppose its not that big of a deal just everytime i let go of him he always came back...at the worst moment like just when i was getting over everything...and i'm kind of getting to that point again...words can unravel everything and i can't stop him from saying the right words you know...

i guess what im trying to say is i wouldn't have to go back to him for him to start it all over. we had the most success in distance.