I am a fake.

A pretender, an actress of sorts
I am not who I make out to be, to the people around me.
It makes them happy knowing that I'm ok if I'm smiling and laughing
But I'm just this pathetic sad girl hiding behind what makes others happy
I disgust myself
Such is life.

Your not going 2 live your own life if your fake. you live others lives, but just as your own being.

thats not cool

When your fake it hard to enjoy life. one day you'll realize you missed out on things that couldve felt better if you were real and it sucks becuase sooner or later it gets annoying and you yourslef feel torn and alone. which sucks more than it did in the beginnning sometimes

We have all been fake before

and its not fun. but you have 2 snap out of it, and find yourself

Aww hun, its hard. But the thing is, you gotta give yourself some credit because at least you catch yourself and know that you can be a bit fake, like bob said. I know its hard, but I know you can get through this.

"Maturity is being yourself and accepting the inadequacies.....regardless of what others think"

^I couldn't have said it better myself. So one day you realise that all that hidding behind masks gets you nowhere...or gets you somewhere you don't want to be. Either way not good. I'm glad you're honest with yourself though.

Everyone hates me that what I get for being me

Hey now. Why be so negative? Everyone hates you? I highly doubt that. Everyone here is always there for you. I know that its just people on the internet, but we care about you and we are always there to talk. That goes for everyone here.

No one will ever understand how you feel like in the inside i know hoe you feel as i type and if i saw somone id probably smile but realy in the inside im m just plain out hurtt:/**

Hunni you need to focus on making YOU happy not hiding behind what you think will make others happy because the people around will change so quickly but you will always have to live with you so make the best of the time you spend here on this earth and do what makes you happy. You can't always please everyone, but what do they matter, YOU should be the most important person in your life.