So close ...

I came so close to hitting rock bottom ...

I suffer from depression, this I know. And I just, I got to a point where I'm like WTF am I doing!?!

Yeah, I'm consantly sad, I'm tired of smiling and not meaning it, I'm alone although I have so many people around me ... But just, even with depression; I have a pretty respectable life > a home, a family(disfunctional but loving), beautiful friends, food, clean water etc.

There's two ways to go when you come close to hitting rock bottom, you 1. Give up, and just let go OR 2. You find a reason to live, you just do the hardest thing for one to do and just LIVE!

So here I am, alive, sad but thankful.

<3 peace.

That's wonderful to hear. :)

And yeah when you hit rock bottom you have a choice to make- you either give up or you fight with everything you have.

I'm glad you chose to stay alive. It'll get better in time.

Yer, I just I got to a point where I wish everyone I loved didn't exist, just so I didn't have the guilt > I have been to many funerals of suicides ... And I was just, I hated myself for thinking that.

You made the right choice, good for you. Hope you find happiness, depression really sucks your soul, it's just tiring.