When was the last time you cried #5

I last time i cried was last night cuz i remember horrible memories n i was missing some1 terribly

Last last day?
i dunno why am crying just i saw myself with tears falling from my eyes,,sighz

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

Last time I cried was an hour ago cuz I had another fight with my dad.. :(

OMG I'm sorry. I have no fricken clue what I did!!!

I feel so stupid!!!!!!!

Grr..last night....i did the one thing..the ONE thing he didnt want me to do..& me being stupid acted as if it was no big deal, so he just left..no goodbye no hugs or kisses..he just walked out me crying telling him "its not that big if a deal"
....
now im stuck to choose between my best friend & my boyfriend
.......
i just dont know whats best
i love how it feels when im with himbut my friends will be there no matter what, yet he proved to me he will be there to even if we brake up....what do i do?

Now.

because my grandma said tonight:

1) i've ruined her life.
2) she's only happy when i'm not home.
3) she's never going to come hear me sing again [shes never missed a single concert before..i lost it when she said that..='[ ]
4) theres no such thing as unconditional love.
5) i ruin peoples lives
6) Eric will break up with me because i will ruin his life like i've ruined my grandma's.
7) my religion [buddhist] makes me horrid/pathetic, because i don't believe in god.

....
='[

I cried like a half hour sgo but I don't know why it's not like I'm really sad or even overly happy or anything, the tears just strted streaming down my face.

I didnt cry all week and was very very hyper but then friday night my brother was drunk and being an arese then lastnight someone smashed my window so it was very stressful weekend and i was crying all night!! xx

I cried because my dad fricken flipped out on me for nothing. I don't even know what I did.

I cried today because I messed up everything. I just can't deal with hurting them...

I cry every night when i got to sleep.
but i cried today cuz i hurt someone i really love.

A few days ago...

Because I adopted a dog about a month ago and I've been realizing that her previous owners used to beat her.
I almost started to cry, out of anger and sadness, when I offered her a stick to play catch with and she cringed. She thought I was going to beat her.

The other times that I MEMORABLY cried... was about four months ago when I had met a guy, liked him so much, told him how much I liked him and we went out on one date that really just didn't work out. There was no magic feeling, no ease between us.
He never talked to me again, never called me or even bothered to write to me on msn or over the internet in every way, and soon after he had declared that he had just gotten a girlfriend on his blog.
I was sad and angry also, because he just seemed... so cheap. I mean, he went out with me, showed signs of interest, and a few weeks later asked someone to be his girlfriend. It seemed weird, and as though he doesn't have much esteem for either me or for the other girl, for that matter.
I was angry because I had judged him to be a very good person, and it seems he was only playing.
Anyway after that I had been feeling off for quite a while, and at one moment I found myself in the bathroom, bent over, and I cried one tear and then it all slowed down, and I didn't have to cry any more.
I found it to be a very deep moment. Very metaphorical. Actually I came to the conclusion that I should only ever have to cry one tear per boy. They can break my heart, but I should never have to cry more than that over them.

//T.L.//

Earlier today when my brother called out of random just to tell me that he loved me.

Yesterday, last night, and today because I'm so freaking confused about stuff right now. My own fiance won't even talk to me after we got into an argument. I tried calling, and calling, and calling yesterday. His cousin finally answered and told me that he was outside talking to another REALLY pretty girl. It broke my heart. I don't know if we're still together though. If we are, he has some major apologizing to do. My heart feels like it's barely hanging on. It also hurts like hell right now.

Lol i cried lastnight cos i was really stressed out then thought i would go watch telly in bed, the remote stopped working so i just lost it and burst out crying..

I cried a few days or so ago. There was been so much drama and frustration at school. I can't even tell if he's being honest or lying anymore. He claims he didn't do it, but everyone else feels otherwise. I just dunno what to believe anymore.. it's becoming too much. Then I threatened to break up with him. He cried, I cried, it was over-whelming. I just don't know what I'm going to do if I lose him. I would lose him entirely....

Now..because i feel so uncared for...i give out so much of myself, so much of my time, so much of my love, but i dont get any in return. in psychology we learned about unconditional positive regard a few weeks or months ago..i dont know..time is blending together for me...and i told grandma about it..she tells me there is no such thing. no such thing as unconditional love? that is what i have for so many of my friends...and for eric [not saying IN love..but even if we were to break up, i'd stillfeel the unconditional caring towards him and want him to be happy and safe and healthy..]...i get no love....i get nothing for myself. my relationship is a one way street of love...my friendships are strictly conditional..they come and go like the rain...my family only loves me when im being their clone.....

why cant anyone love me? or at least LIKE/TOLERATE unconditionally....

eric normally can pick up on my emotions, even when we are apart..but lastnight i said -huggles and kisses- on AIM, and he was like...huggles? and i was like..yep. and he was like..i dont want huggles...=[ it silly im sure to cry over, but seriously....when he was here he told me he loved the hug/cuddles aka huggles. =[...its like he doesnt appreciate me..and so after that i was all upset and not talking much, and instead of asking me whats wrong, he just says hes going to go to bed! and so we go through our goodnight..adn thats it...=[

now i have no one that appears to care about me. at all. and its terrifying living in a world with no love....=[

Now, because im always the friend, always second choice, never the one.

Today, in the doctors office..

Yesterday.... because my nephew is in the hospital... and he is going to get surgery tomorrow...

I stayed up all night crying because things were going so well last week and i felt great and suddenly they have all gone back to being shit. everyone around me just seems to be hurting or going through something stressful and it hurts :(

I cry pretty much every night... but i cried last night because i have to say goodbye to the only 2 people in my life who i trust and who have been there for me though thick and thin, in 2 weeks. </3

Today.... :(

I cried because of the sick rumours about me, and the whole bull shits...
life is again the same..

Last night after I started thinking about my best friend who I just got a letter from yesterday but I cannot see because he lives far away and I miss him terrible because I havn't seen him in like a little over a year.

Today..tv did it. i think im just all emotional because i have a headache, im tired, im sick, and i miss eric. lol.

I cryed twice today... I feel like such a baby 1st time- Because HE touched me again
2nd time- Because I listened to a bunch of songs that reminded me of what we used to have

Last night because I lost some very important papers from school and I can't graduate without those papers...Grrz!!!

I heart breakingly cry every night.
All for the reason of why i'm still here.
I try to commit suicide and they just say i'm selfish whenever i survive.

Is that all they have to say? They could've just lost there daughter/sister/friend/relation to some stupid guy in the family.
No 'i love you', no nothing, just a shake of the head saying i'm stupid and selfish for thinking of something stupid as that to do.

They say i'm making my problems up, why i always cry and am a maiac depression they just look at me basically and laugh.
Do i really want to feel like (excuse my language) bullshat everytime i awake?

They know i'm hiding things but they can't be bothered to figure it out.
They know i'm depressed but don't really care.
I'm the answer to everyones problems and they know it, i just try to fit in and make everyone happy.

The girl who is supposed to be happy because she's got it all, and they just shrug there shoulders when i cry and scream and say 'TAKE ME AWAY!'.

There daughter or whoever i am is slowly dying inside and there to busy about whats planned for tomorrow... it could be my death.

That's the reason i cry, i have to many secrets i hold to myself like the lock in the basement, things are down there that i don't know of. like my own basement no-one will know what is down there and what i hide.

14 times of trying to commit suicide, surely they know by now that i need help. Are they that stupid or act it?

They say hold on for your friends - pftt what friends? Friends are supposed to love you and care but when i fall, there never really there are they?

What a game of life this is, Utterly bullshat for a 13 year old girl who tries so hard, with nothing in the end but another shot to try once more.

Right now.

I feel like i've lost everything, and i have nothing left to gain. I feel jealousy sparking over me, and quite a bit of need. I had lust, drifting right by me. I can't write anymore. I'm just really a wreck.

The last time I cried was one day ago...I cry a lot by the way

In April when my boyrfiend broke up but it was just a tear of 2 that came... obviously the feelings hade gone away long before we broke up

Last night

Last weekend.
i was torn between two decisions and neither of them really felt right. i was so confused and had no one that i could talk to about it and them understand. it was so depressing.

About an hour ago because of some silly girl who seemed perfect for Marcus and she knew it.