When was the last time you cried #5

New Years Day. Because I was feeling unwell and wanted to go home. =o) I sound like a 5 yr old compared to what you all are going through.

I cried myself to sleep last night because i miss him I miss his arms around me :(

I cried last night because eric always sunds embarrassed when h e says he loves me...

and i cried today because he couldtell something was bothering me..i told him...and for a moment i thought he was going to break up with me......and i didnt realize until today just how much i'd miss him if we breakup..because i cried a lot...

It was earlier today..next semester in september he will be going off to college..and i wont be going with him..he says he wont go if i dont want him to..but i would hate to be the one to hold him back..i want him to succeed and be the best & not to be held back by me, some silly girl...I love him dearly & it brakes my heart to know he will go..but im not selfish enough to hold him back...i only want whats best for him..even if it hurts me inside...

Yesterday (jan 13) ....it was the day after our anniversary and well we were just at his house..long story short..i decided to go through his phone while he was in tha living room..and he sent a ext to his friend saying "man i have this girl brittany i want to _ _ _ _ monday, hook me up with a spot"....my name sure isnt brittany thats all i know..so i immediatly drooped tha phone walked out and said i needed to go home..i cried the whole way home & told him what i saw..i didnt let him explain hisself...then i lost my house key..so as i try to open it im screaming crying and it wont budge...so i get back in his car & wait for someone to get home..well he is in there asking me over and over again if we are still together,,,,i couldnt even answer..i just cried...he grabbed me and kept hugging me and i kept screaming for him to stop..but he kept saying "no i need you here"..so i layed there for about 3 minutes then i finally pushed him away & let him explain that him and his friend were just joking around...then it was about 5:15 and he had to go to his basket ball game...so i ended up having to go and sitting there till about 10:00pm watching him play..today i didnt let him see it still hurt me...i acted as if it was in the past..and i got over it...i brought him back his hoodie..not knowing what to do..my hearts telling me he does love me and he wouldnt do that to me and it really was a joke...but my mind is telling me to run as fast as i can...

I cried an hour and 45 minutes last night straight.....because we're [me and eric] are almost positive he wont be able to come up here tomorrow through monday like we planned..im devestated and beyond disappointed....even though it isnt for sure until tonight whether he can or not, just the thought i need to go another week or 2 is killing me.....god i wish we just lived together now..i cant stand us being apart =[

I cried to a love movie last night..

I cried today for 4 hours off and on, mostly on....my new record...this has been the most roller coastery of a day ever...woke up thinking eric was gonna be here @ noon. noon came..no eric. we texted, he was waiting for his friend...2 came..still no friend...4 came..still no friend...5 came..friend was on his way to his house....6 came...they were waiting for friend's mom...7 came, still waiting. 8 came...waiting...9 came...she said NO...now we're screwed....930 came, eric got his mom to loan him a car...now theyre coming..he's 11 hours late so far, but better late then never...i guess...though im emotionally drained. it doesnt help im already emotional cuz im on my period =p

Last night because i had to have bloodtests and im scared of what theyre going to say. And also because i miss 2 of my friends soooo much. </3

I cried last night just to cry. I was thinking about the glittering snow and how beautiful it was.

I cant remember
=/ how terrible

Last night when i found out that everytime my boyfriend, well ex boyfriend since about two months ago, had said that evey time he had said he loved me since my birthday(first time he said it) he was confused. So i told him, in other words you lied to me eveytime you said you loved me and he said basically yes.