I dont know...

I dont know if I am going to make it through another day...I cant seem to do anything right anymore. My heart is breaking and fading into nothing. I am alone at school...even when I do have a good day at school it goes back crashing down the next day...I cant do anything to stop it. My heart has been broken so many times. I have so many cuts on me...!!!</3 I just want to die...I want to go kill myself...right at the moment of everyday...I mean I guess I am not a good person. I can't lock away my past...it is hard to. No one wants me here....I have no friends but some...but they make it seem making friends and keeping them is so easy. I cant really keep a friend....=[[[ I am walking alone towards the light...I cant really put up with this abuse for another year making it about 5yrs of abuse....=[[[ HA....I was strong...but not anymore....I am miss imperfect with the worst personality...the ugliest girl in the world...the worst talent of poetry....my poems must suck since no one really comments them...I get jealous of everyones talent....Well I dont know anymore....it was a fun ride on this website....but now my world is crashing...I wish i was by someones side in real life on this site....but just thank you for so much everyone....

ALL SO MUCH LOVE,

CourtneyxHolland

Well, don't be that much heartbroken..
u got to move on...life's always this way, i know..so, i agree to some extent.
gosh!! everybody here in this site does have talent, that's why they are here.. There's no point of saying that your poetry sucks.. and u don't need at all other's opinion about how exactly is your poetry because the reality is " that's ur feelings, and if u'll say that ur poetry sucks?doesn't it means ur feelings are nothing to u?
k'mon..i'll check out your poems..don't be that mean with your ownself and don't even be that much pessisimist.
even, i have been through too much lately..
the whole suffering is , oh! gosh!! really painful..
like there's no hope and no where to go.
but, life goes on..
you just try to open up your self, sometimes we don't feel like having anyone by ourside, all because we don't see at all..
wish you luck!!!

No one thinks worse about us than we ourselves do, as you can see if you read back through your post. School was never a pleasant endeavor for me, I couldn't wait to get the hell out and away from the shallow pool of existence it provided. Some people do have an easy time mingling with people and making friends. I don't really know the drama behind your story so I can't comment too much on the situation, but hating yourself won't help you a bit. Always here with an ear if you ever need to talk, feel free to PM me.

I understand ur feelings rightnow coz ur broken hearted. so its natural to feel that way, u want to die, killed ur self, so alone, lonely, the unlukiest person... but TAKENOTE!!!!in this world there is no perfect, in other words nobody's perfect, as u know ur not all alone coz a million people had suffered what u had at this moment, but that is only a game of life, a game that if u know how to play w/it.. u never been lose however, ifever u lose or u win there is only one answer, its GOD'S well plan. no one wants to be like this but this is part of our life that we must accept and just enjoy it until we had this only one chance to live. no matter how many people breaks ur heart or how many obstacles comes ur way, face it coz the more u had this kind of things the more u understand the game of life how woth is ur life... goodluck and face the challenge

sweet lig