My realisation...

When I was with my ex i felt as if i couldnt talk to him when i had a problem because i was so afraid that he'd get upset and try and get away from me . . . thats not right . . . i couldnt tell him when i was hurt, it was stifling, i dunno i just realised this and needed to vent . . .

(he broke up with me cos he didn't love me anymore)

Also ive come to the conclusion that he doesnt know what true love is. He would always go on and on about how afraid he was that i'd stop loving him HA! I was obviously the more true-er one of the relationship . . .

He's with a new girl now, started dating her a month after we broke up - thats like a stab to the heart, then stomping on it then burning it (especially since they used to refer eachother as bro and sis !). She's young(er) so Im hoping it doesnt work out - just cos it would suck, knowing that i was the girl who helped him get over his ex, then he goes on to find the "one". But like I said he doesn't know what love is...
He is purely driven by his hormones.

Sigh.

I still love him, with all my heart ... but I'm beginning to think I deserve better. He wasn't a bad boyfriend, but he wasn't a great one either(near the end).

Anyways I'm gonna live my life, and I pray that god has created my "one" - and he's out there for me.

Well, only time can tell, right?!?

xx

Timee can only heal broken heart my ex did that to told me we wud get bak together but he started writing the exact same thing to another girl who was suppose to be my sister I was devestayed follow ur heart god has a plan for u it might not be right away but another fish in the sea is out there. I come to find that poetry eases my mind I wish u the best following ur Dreams