Sick of it all... why do the sweetest of people hurt the most of

I'm sick of it. I want it to stop. I can't take it anymore. For those of you who care enough to read... here is my situation. My friend Vi...whom I love enough to take a bullet for... he used to live a life filled with drugs, lies, misery, depression, suicide...all of that shitty stuff. This year he's been better... and he's the only one who's ever been there for me, those dark nights when the only thing between me and a razor was him, and his kind words. Anyways... I'm seriously worried about him now. He's seriously considering ditching everything he's worked towards, and going back to his old life. I'm worried that he'll attempt suicide again...and succeed. But what I really feel terrible about...and I don't mean to be this way, really... is that I'm not as concerned for his mental well-being than I am for the fact that he'll be leaving me to my demons if he does decide to forfeit on his new life. Anyways....I needed to vent, sorry for the rant. Any advice would be nice, please..just please...don't leave any mean comments. I don't think I could bear it....

I'm sorry...try and stay talking to him, and make sure that he knows how much he means to you, and all, and that how his life will get better if he gives it time...since if has for him in the past...sorry if this doesnt help..i tried...
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Have you told Vi all these things? Maybe if he knew the impact he had on your life and the fact of how much he has helped you and managed to keep you strong he will realise that he has purpose here and someone who truly loves and cares for him. Sometimes people just need a hug and to be told that have meaning in anothers life, and that everything will be alright...I dont know the ins or outs of your situation or his so I cant really elaborate on this but you will both be in my thoughts and prayers and I hope everything turns out well for you both and that your days start looking a bit brighter :o)

Don't abbandon him, even dou you might feel more worried about him abandoning you, than for him. It's understandable that you get this feeling. Since he's the only one who's been there for you, you feel like your going to end up all alone, and that feeling frightens you. But don't take that the bad way, use that fear as fuel to stay by his side and convince him to stay away from that life.
I hope this will help you.
take care, and hang strong

Timothy

Thank you...all of you. But the thing is...I've tried all of the above. He won't listen to me. "Life was so much easier when no one knew I existed..." He keeps repeating these words... I just want to grab him and never let go. All day today, not a moment went by when I wasn't thinking of suicide. Not mine, but his. I'm so worried he'll try it. I don't know what else to do to help him, I feel like all of my efforts are in vain....

Just go up to him hug him tightly and say "i'm here to stay, and i'll never let go" it's sappy, i know, but it might just get through to him.

I have this poem on this site, "what about me". It's about a situation just like that one your going trough. read it, and let him read it too. let me know
Tim

thanks again, all of you. I took your advice, and I feel as if I may have talked some sense into him. Thanks, all of you.