Im sad because of Suicide

About a year ago my cousin commited suicide...about a day before he did he came over (he lived across the street) and talked to us he seemed perfectly happy then about 12 o'clock the next night, we see ambulances and were told that he had killed himself...it was the first time that i had been to a funneral and he was about to get married his poor girlfriend had came home to find him dead...i cry every now and then because of it...

Im so sorry if you dont mind me asking do you know why he did that

We have no clue...he showed no signs of even thinking of killing himself...his gf was his life and i guess that even that wasnt enough to make him happy and it makes me sad, i just wish that i could have been able to do something i just felt so helpless...

Did he have a journal or write a note they leave clues in those sometimes like in the notes sometimes it has to do with puncuation errors well im sry to hear this is there anyway that i can help you feel better?

Yah i agree im trying to get over it its just we were really close and its just hard but im trying...thanks...and no he didnt leave a note or anything to indicate that he was going to kill himself he just did...i dont think that he did the wrong thing i hope that hes in a better place because if he really was that depressed to were life wasnt worth living for the one person he thought "was" worth living for then im glad that hes out of that pain...

I have lost so many people in my life through suicide but to be honest with you i use 2 sit blaming myself but after reading Hamlet i came 2 realize that people who commit suicide are like the tragic hero, they are stoic and choose to hide the excruciating pain which they go through, they act happy on the outside when it is ripping them apart on the inside.

my brother recently died of an overdoes, well actually its already almost 2 months now and i will never know weather it was on purpose or if it was a mistake 3 days ago his best friend committed suicide.

people often say that suicide is the cowards way out but i mean to actually go and take your own life takes more courage than anything knowing what you are leaving behind.

no matter what the reasons your cousin was obviously suffering on the inside and is now out of his pain. it will take a long time and will be a hard process but things will get easier. just know that there are other people out there who understand what you are going through.

theres that saying that goes "not all scars show, not all wound heal, sometimes you can't see the pain someone feels" just know that it was not your fault and your cousin hates seeing you hurt. it is okay to cry, just let it all out and if you ever want someone 2 talk 2 I'm always here.