Why does it hurt so much?how can i know what i feel?

My best guy friend andn i got into a HUGE fight on sept 5th and i was crying every day since then because i missed him so much and in a way i guess i like him more then a friend.then his soccer coach who is also one of my best guy friends made us talk and we got things straight,like yeh now we are friends and all,but our friendship isnt like the way it was before.
So then i talked 2 one of my friends who moved to a different school and who i havnt talked to in a long time and so she was tellin me how she was upset and been crying everyday over a guy and everything, so i asked her who the guy was and she told me it was the kid i got into the fight with, i was crying when she told me that she missed him a lot and how he was always there for her etc... So she asked me how i was n i told her how i got in a HUGE fight with this kid n ive been crying and upset but i never told her his name because she had told me that the kid she got in a fight with and everything was the same kid i got into the fight with.
So then she tells me how she liked him soo much,how she never felt that away about any other guy etc,n how she wanted him back in her life. i was really upset like i dint know how to react n what to tell her so i just said to make things straight with him and to talk 2 him,but she said she cant because her pride wont let her.
Like i knew he had feelings 4 her during the school yr which was 07-08 n i talked 2 him 2 see why thay got in a fight and he told me that she tried him and stuff i asked him how she tried him and he said" i went to the game to tell her how i felt about her n all and when i got there i texted her,but she wasn't at the game. So i was like o0ohh ok.
So den when ever i would talk 2 my friend she will tell me how he is always in her head how she misses him, and all i can say is "i feel ya on that one because i feel the same way about the kid i got in a fight wit"i always have had feelings 4 him since i 1st saw him.
Den me and my friend met up at this place to chill and she was telling me all this stuff about him and i decided to tell her what he said to me how she tried him and all, then she was about 2 cry and so was i, but in a way i felt soo relieved and soo much better that i told her, but yet she still upset she wont talk 2 him because she scared n her pride wont let her.
Like i tell her 2 talk 2 him 2 make things right because i wanna see them happy and not upset.
Literally I dont know y i tell her 2 make things right n everything because every time she tells me how much she likes him n misses him makes me cry.
i dont know what to do i dont know what my feelings are anymore ,like i tried letting go of him but i cant deres something that keeps holding on too him =(

I couldn't understand your whole post and I don't know what "trying" him means lol

Deciphered, I would say you both like the same guy, but you didn't realize it until you got in a fight. Now you are trying to get the 2 of them talking, but you still want him. So what is it you are trying to accomplish? If you are her friend why wouldn't you tell her it is the same guy? Why is it a secret? She knows you're friends, what is the big deal about telling her the 2 of you got in an argument? The something holding you there with him, is you, if you really wanted to let go you would but obviously you don't so you can't. Anyway lol A bit of confusing, badly translated, drama.

I know lol..n im sry i just dont typer well when im sad r anything im surprised i can write poems but not this lol..i dnt know what he meant either all he said was "she tried me" ia sked him why n he told me that he was gona go to the game to tell her how he feels about her,and that when he got to da game he texted her but she never showed up.

I wanna get them 2 talking because i dnt like seeing them hurt and upset n i want them 2 b happy even if it hurts me. i cnt tell her because she knows dat i was upset and that ive cried everyday since the fight. I do wanna let him go, but he is lik perfect n besides i dnt wanna loose our friendship bcuz he means sooo much to me

You don't have to lose the friendship, but you need to know where to draw the line, if you are not going to go for it and you want to get him and your friend together, you just have to let it go.

Dats da thing idk were to draw it, i do wanna go 4 it but i know he dnt feel da same way i do, i say dat to my friend cuz i cnt stand seein her sad n upset about da same kid dat we both hav feelings for,but im still trying n trying to let it go but i dnt think its working

Hunni if you type like you type in a poem more people could read this and help you, i couldnt make sense of most of it because of how you abbreviated everything.

Yeah, i can't read it either. if you want help i recommend you actually type out the words..after all, this is a poem website.....

O0hh yeh im sorry im used to typing like that so yeh..but i fixed it now though

From personal experience, let him go. And chose your friend over a guy. You can still be friends with the guy but stop wishing for something more. Or if you decide you do want something more than let go of your friend (the girl).
It's a tough situation but you got to make a decision because being in a tangled up situation like that is draining.
I was in a similar one and both me and my friend chose each other over the guy. Now we are best friends but we both also remain friend with the guy. It's a whole lot easier to live with.

Thnks..i know i shouldnt let a guy come between me and my friend.i do want to let him go but its soo difficult,i would let go of my friend but she did switch schools and we barely see each other.yes it is draining but i dont know how to let him go.he means so much to me he was one of my best guy friends but now i dont even know