"Weighting" For My Life to Start...

Have you ever told yourself that there's something you really want to do, and that you will do it... as soon as you've lost X amount of weight.

It's sad, but that happens to me all the time. I'm always thinking that this time next year I will have lost weight and will be looking nice, and I dream about all the things I will do.
It's just that right now I'm so sick of that attitude. I may be overweight, but I still feel that I can't let that hold me back in every way. Sometimes, despite the flab, you've just got to let yourself live a little anyway, instead of hiding away, counting the hours until your diet kicks in and you look like a movie star.
Nobody is perfect... and nobody is expected to be. Some of the coolest people I know carry a few extra kilos, but they don't let that get in their way.
To all of you who, like me, struggle with your weight, I say don't wait for that perfect number to pop up on the scale... do something NOW, while the day is still young.

I for one do not want to spend a lifetime judging myself solely on my outward appearance.

//T.L.//

p.s. Sorry for the rant. It was a particularly long, "fat" day. :)

T.L. I can certainly understand where you are coming from. During my teens and my 20's I was always small. Then when in I hit 30 I grew majorly depressed and put on weight. I didnt want to go out or do anything fun. Then before I knew it I was 35 and realized I had wasted 5 years of my life, (my youth!) I have recently lost almost a hundred pounds and am pretty close to what I was back in my 20's, and I feel great. Even before I started losing the weight, I decided to start living again instead of letting life pass me by. once I made that decision, and acting on it, I came out of my depression, went on a healthy diet and now wish I had done it years ago!

How did you do it?? I know I'm not super huge but I jumped up 7 pant's sizes in a year and I don't want to be back where I used to because i looked sickly but I do want to lose some weight i just don't have the money to do all these diets they advertise and not all of them sound healthy at all....How do you know what to try??

Well, I stopped trying to do all the advertised diets and started eating healthy. I eat lean meats, only baked or use cooking spray, lots of veggies. I put myself on a 1000 calorie a day diet, 30 grams of fat and 100 carbs, and got a membership to the Y where I work out about 3 times a week for at least a half hour. I have lost 10 dress/pant sizes in 8 months.

Wow that is amazing!!!! congratulations on your success. i really hate how being super thin is portrayed as the best thing ever. i use 2 be pretty chubby and was always teased then i decided to take matters into my own hands because i felt that if i lost weight my life would be better (so it seemed)

i began starving myself and eventually started sticking my finger down my throat. i got way to thin, started fainting all the time whilst at school and in public, began having various health issues and just felt self conscious all the time. eating disorders caused me to go into such a deep depression, i always feel hungry so get sad and irritated easily. i have overcome the anorexia and whilst talking to a group of my really close guy friends found out that guys way prefer girls with curves, they told me that a girl as skinny as i was is a complete turn off.

being stick thin is not glamorous , women are meant to have curves!!!! that is the most sexy thing about them, its just that the media sends out a different message. i am still fighting my bulimia and often starve myself but am trying really hard to overcome it.

I'm happy I'm not as think as i used to be, honestly I think i looked sickly, but i would like to get fit. A very good friend of mine was in Karate and he only has 9% body fat!! He's got an amazing body!!
I'm really scared of a eating disorder though because one of my friends had bulimia and he went through so much.....I hate how advertisments and everything make it seem like you have to be able to see your ribs. That's didsgusting to me, as much as I'd love to be thin, I'd never take it to that extreme.

Yeah, I am really glad that you think that way because having your ribs showing really is not beautiful. i have such a hard time with eating disorders and i always use 2 say i had my anorexia and bulimia under control but control was kind of the last thing i was even closer to having. guys hate girls whos bones stick out. well i have put on a bit of weight so look slightly better but all my guy friends have told me guys love girls who have curves. and in anyway rather be happy with life than become a total misery because you are starving yourself or when you do eat purging your food. eating disorders really are not glamorous or fun. i hate that i battle them

Shellaine
I see alot in you through your work and your posts here, You seem like a beautiful person on the inside and that is so much better than physical beauty could ever be. A friend showed me that recently through their acts of love for people they didnt even know. Hang in there hunni.

Well i have put on a bit more weight and am really trying hard. all my friends i model with are so happy that i am not fainting all the time from not eating.

people always tell me i am a beautiful girl but growing up my dads girlfriend would always tell me i was ugly, fat etc... and would show me pictures of really skinny girls in magazines and say that was beautiful. no one wants a "fat girl" and she would always force me to go on disgusting diets and eventually i decided i was going 2 take things into my own hands and that was kind of how it all started and after 6 years i guess it just got out of control.

she would always tell me i am the typical fake girl and with blue eyes dark hair and porcelain skin and would say guys want the blond girls not that. anyway because i was so young when it started, i was 6 2 be exact it just stuck in my head.

modeling has helped me a lot because i have been offered so many amazing opportunities and am actually really excited for my recovery but thank you so much for the support i realyl appreciate it!!!! hugs