How is it possible to feel so much pain?

  • Beautifully Disfigured
    16 years ago

    Two of my friends died last month.

    One due to something wrong with his hear.
    The other committed suicide.

    And now my uncle just died yesterday.

    How is it possible to feel so much pain.
    How do you cope with it?

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    Hun my 2 best friends died too. The one Mattie got a call form a prnak caller saying her boyfriend died she killed herself and then her boyfriend killed himself they were my best friends and I was the one who found them both.

    And I know what you mean. My dad raped me 2 times and then my friend raped me and I'm pregnant with my friend's child. My younger bro who would be 15 died in a car crash and my mom and older bro are missing. and my dad killed my grandma and aunt.....

    I don;t know how it's possible to feel so much pain. *hugs*

    How do I cope with it?
    My friends. That's the only thing right now
    My friends are there for me constantly and alwasy there to push me back up when I fall. Stay close yto your friends. And PM me if you want to continue talking or just talk on here. Dont matter which

  • megan
    16 years ago

    Wow that post was more about you than helping her jess. and people who are seriously reeling from that would not be shouting it to the world like its nothing.

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    Well excuse me! ANd it is all true. BUt ya think i ccare what you think. I was just telling her that I havebeen through a lot to and would love ot help her because I know how she feels. Just trying to help here. It's pathetic how people in this world are today. Don't get all mad at me for trying help. I was trying to help and you both need to chill. And please do not talk to me if you havenothing nice ot say.

    To poster
    I'm sorry huni just tring to help. I hope you understand I was just trying to tell you I have been through I lot too. And would love to help you get over your pain. Sorry If it didnt come across that way. *hugs*

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    Just to say That One Guy I apologized to her and I never meant it to come out that way. I wasn't trying to jsut talk about myself. And it did really happen to me but believe what you want. Because I have a billion friends who love me more then the world. And I don't care what you think.

  • iris
    16 years ago

    Yes, friends are everything. Friends help you through everything, even when maybe family should do that job.

    Im sorry jessica for what you have been through, and im sorry As The World for what you have been through as well, grief is an awful thing to have to go through...maybe try writing a letter the those people...just say whatever you feel in the letter. It can really help to get things out, to say what you wished you'd said.

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    Yea Iris I write everything that I want to say to them in a book. You should try that As The World it has really helped me. Escepically if you write down what they would say to it. KInd of makes you feel like they are right there next to you for a second. O and also if you and a lot of friends are close to the ones who died I found it helpful to all get together and talk about all the good times. We had lots of laughs instead of tears for a little while.

  • Love Panda
    16 years ago

    Hey angel,

    it is never easy when somebody you love dies. you just have to do what ever it is you must do to lesson the pain, it wont go away just like that, it will fade and in time be gone all together, nothing left but the good memories of when they were living.

    its hard though, i wont lie..give yourself this well needed time to grieve, if you deny yourself the grieving process it will be much much worse.

    take things slow, cry when you feel you want to, but to help...you could write your feelings down, happy or sad, get it all out of you. trust me it will help a great deal.

    PEACE & LOVE
    I.B.E
    XXX

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    Well That One Guy I was in a mental hospital to be exact and I went crazy in there. And to tell the truth I don't care if you believ me. My friends are the only thing that matter to me. So just leave me alone. You do things your way and Ill do things my way. Because I know for me and all of my friends it helps to know someones been through the same things. So i jsut wanted her to know ive been there before.

  • AngelicDecadence
    16 years ago

    OMG. Are you guys serious? Look, i know jessica. She wouldn't lie. Theres no point! Ive been through more crap then she has, and im ok only for a few reasons. I wont go into my problems because i dont care what you guys think and personally, THIS ISN'T WHY THIS POST STARTED! Don't tell her shes lying simply because you think shes after attention. Read some of her poems. Why would she put those on here for no reason? Not everyone is after attention you know. Maybe she was just trying to show the original poster she can relate. God. Accusing others before you know them is wrong.. And for the fool who said theres no way she would be telling the truth, PM me! I could show you some things that could BLOW your mind buddy. I used to like what you said about people on here because it was true, but you just proved my thoughts wrong, THANKS.
    and to the original poster. I am soooo sorry! That must be a terrible thing to go through. As i said before, ive had terrible things happen to me too, and i can relate as well. If you need to talk I'm on here almost all the time. Just try talking to people, like on here.. if you want to talk just PM me or just keep posting... really i am truly sorry.

  • Beautifully Disfigured
    16 years ago

    Well last night I learned who my true friends are.

    My friends were over when my mom told me about my uncle.

    when I walked back into my room they just left me there crying and went home.

    I never thought that that would happen to me.
    I always believed that they were true friends and now they are trying to be all buddy buddy with me as if nothing ever happened.

    I just cant take any of this anymore. Its too much to bear.

  • AngelicDecadence
    16 years ago

    Don't give up. Its a terrible burden, but think of how your family must feel. I'm sorry your friends did that to you, its wrong. Try to put your feelings in order, you'll be a mess for a while, i know, one of my best friends just passed, but it will get better. Sadly, only time seems to help. Just try to hang in there and not think about it all the time. Try to occupy your time. Talk to people. But you do need to grieve so dont hold it all in ok. Cry when you need to, but be happy when you feel like it too.

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    O my gosh I love you Ash!!!! *hugs tightly* You are a true true friend and i love you.

    They left you?!? O my gosh im so sorry huni. *hugs* i dont know how i can help you

  • AngelicDecadence
    16 years ago

    No problem Jess. They're wrong and they need to understand that. Thats all.

    And to the poster, if you eva need to talk im on here most of the time. Just PM me and i might be able to help.
    Hope it gets better for you.

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    That One Guy I'm sorry I kept getting on you about it. I just hate when people think I want attention and I'm lying. Because truthfully I hate attention and have only lied to one person in my entire life.

    So sorry! I hope you'll forgive me.

  • Elizabeth
    16 years ago

    ^ You shouldn't really feel sorry Jessica, you did NOTHING to deserve being disrespected like you did, but that's really kind of you to forgive him & such nonetheless. Obviously you are a STRONG individual; person, to be able to deal with what had happened to you. It doesn't sound unrealistic at all but rather, unfortunately, common in this world today. No one knows what you've really been through so no one can tell you otherwise, if they do their ignorant in many ways.

    It was decent of you, That One Guy, for apologizing to her too & very much appreciated.

  • Elizabeth
    16 years ago

    ^ Somewhere Between Life and Death, this is life; reality, not some fictional television show; soap opera... Try not to be so ignorant. I'm sure an apology for being thus so would be much appreciated.

  • Jessica
    16 years ago

    It's ok you don't have to be sorry. A year ago I wouldn't have believed it either.